A weak ago my 88-year-old mom came home from the hospital being cared by hospice, which she does not know, I told her they're just regular nurses. I'm confused because the doctors did not tell me what stage she's at and I asked hospice how long she has and they said they did not know. I received the report and the diagnose is colon ascending invasive moderately differentiated adenocarcinoma.
Mom is weak. I need to help her up from the hospital bed to take her with a wheelchair to the bathroom, which is not very far, she doesn't resist sitting in the wheelchair for longer then ten minutes if I take her for a spin around the house. She's not really eating that much and nothing tastes good to her. In the beginning of the week she kept asking me when she was getting better that she wanted to walk at least around the house. Now for the last two days she's been crying and saying she wants to die, that she can't believe how she ended up, how long she'll have to be like this. I try to encourage her to take day by day. I'm always with her I sleep next to her. We only had one nurse visit and the nurse said she's not at the end for now. I don't know what else to do, sometimes she gets pretty stern saying why God did this to her. I know we're not God, but I wish I would know what's expected. I'm the only child without help from anyone I'm getting depressed and anxious.
Are there any explanation out there?