Just want to thank everyone here for being a helpful rudder and a welcome port in a storm. I was a longtime lurker.

Before I ever posted. I appreciate each and every one if you, though we may not have always agreed. I have lashed out personally and have been combative at times. I am sorry. 

When you realize you are powerless, it affects you in ways you really don't believe. Knowledge is not really power here, because you can't change the ending, really. But it does help you check your expectations. I have cried with so many. Your stories have been uplifting and so sad.

I raise my glass to all of you. Thank you.