I know better than to feel guilty, but I am so exhausted. I am 23 years younger than my Mom, I am healthy, but just watching her die exhausts me. It is not just me, everyone has been asking me for a year now, if she is about to die. The answer is that she could have dropped dead any time in the last five years. It is so hard to watch and I am alone.
She has congestive heart failure and I have spent many hours researching this on-line. I have also spoken to the medical professionals and everyone, even the hospice people, are so evasive. I know they can't predict a time of death, but I just want to know about the progression of the disease.
Relatives and her friends want to say goodbye. I am in the position of being the boy who cries wolf or missing the mark. This is adding a lot of extra stress on me.