Mom wakes me up after tending to her all day to change her, change her sheets in the wee hours of the morning. I get so irritated. I can’t think. I can’t even put my emotions into words right now other than I am so sick of everything.
Love is not enough to see me through this. I love her. I know that she loves me but love cannot sustain me anymore. It’s just so hard and some days and nights are almost too much to handle.
I get mad when she says she is sorry. It just makes me feel worse. I hate that she is miserable. I hate that I am miserable. I feel like a machine going through the motions. Same with her. There’s no meaning left in our lives. This isn’t living for either of us.
I hope and pray that I get approved by the veterans for aid and attendance. Please pray that I do so I can get the much needed help that I need. Thank you.