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I love her so much but since the house fire its all about her. 2 years ago Moms Dr. put her on 24 hr care due to mobility issues. Mothers mind is still pretty sharp at the age of 75 but she can not walk and due to way to much prednisone and osteoperosis coughing to hard broke her back last winter. I have put my life on hold, put myself into debt having to quit work (My Credit Score is Like a 500 now) to go home and care for her. My relationship with my male friend is almost obsolete at this point and i feel angry . Don't get me wrong I would never or have i ever even thought of hurting my mom but my words to her sometimes are like a knife. Our house burned on Feb. 1st of this year and she had nowhere near enough money to rebuild and due to zoning issues with the city we were not allowed to put a mobile home back on the property. I had 40,000.00 to work with . My car had blown up 2 weeks prior to the fire as well. So i bought a vehicle. After all the dr appts and things do not stop coming. We had to have transportation . She got angry about that. The gas it takes to house search and have you seen the prices on houses these days? Wow! I ended up talking her into a place in the Ragland,Al. which is just a little country town not much there. over from us which we got for 20,000.00 1 acre of land and a double wide that needed some work , (by the way she had been on that property since she was 2 years old. Her entire life was spent there) I told her we would have enough money to buy a piece of property and move the mobile home back into our city. Well repairs have way outweighed our finances and what we have is what we have. She told me she would kill herself if I moved her there! I mean really I have worked 10-14 hr days trying to get the repairs on that place done working like a man replacing flooring and hanging sheet rock etc. I payed to have block underpinning etc. to make the place nice and have achieved a very nice home for her with only 40,000.00. I guess what i'm getting at is she has not been happy with one thing i've done from the day the house burned. I have had to pay people to stay with her during the day while im repairing or house searching she said i have blew all of her money and I told her she was a selfish greedy old woman and she should be ashamed for telling people i waisted all her money and have been leaving her with strangers for days on end. I kinda thought that a vehicle, acre of land, a nice 4br 3 bath double wide with a firm foundation, brand new appliances and furniture well i thought i had done very well with her money. Maybe I am just burned out but i do know this....I NEED A BREAK from the guilt trips she keeps playing on me. I cry all the time and am miserable.

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I'm so proud to be a small part of this group when I read threads like this one! Wonderful advice from some, warmth and friendship from others, compassion from all.

Dixielicious, I can't add any more "wisdom" to what has been written here, but the bottom line is that you must take care of yourself. Your mother isn't happy, she won't be happy, and you dropping in your tracks trying to change that won't make her happy. Start working on rebuilding your own life somehow, and do read this whole thread.
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I'm new to this forum, and feel much of the pain you are both experiencing. I am the POA over my narcissistic mother, who had a stroke 5 months ago that left her unable to walk, confused, and mean. I have changed my life in more ways than I can count to keep this woman in her home (her most fervent wish) and all she does is bemoan her life and complain. There isn't one part of my life that hasn't gone into a tailspin (my marriage, health, work, you name it). What has helped me is to call her out on her behavior, even if the vascular dementia doesn't allow for her to remember it the next day. I do it quietly and firmly, and if she escalates her whining and complaints, I repeat myself in the same manner. If it still continues...I make sure she is safely in bed or in her chair...and leave the room. For at least 10 minutes. I go in the other room and take deep belly breaths, compose myself, and try again. If it continues I tell her I love her, but I won't be treated that way (with disrespect) and leave again. This time for 20 minutes. Repeat, repeat...lengthening the time each time I go. My mom is a master manipulator, and plays my siblings and I all against one another. She is a diva. I didn't realize how my father (who was the strongest and kindest man I have ever known) filled that space of neediness for her (he adored her) so that without him....nothing anyone does (especially me) is EVER enough. If you haven't already, read up on narcissistic mothers. I had never heard of that, and as I read about them, about a million bells went off in my head. It's a cycle many of us daughters have been in since childhood, and I was flabbergasted at the manipulation she had basically been wielding toward me literally my entire life. Love and peaceful healing to the hearts of all of us who are trying deal with aging, not so nice, mothers. xo
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YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I can only speak from my own experiences so all I can say is take your life back! I cared for my mother for nearly twenty years, even when she was self sustaining, she moved in with my husband and I just after our one year wedding anniversary. Everyone questioned my sanity but it was a promise l kept as a child, long story. Anyways, it all came to a head for us, me especially, a few months ago. My mother drive me to the point, like you're saying, needed a break. She was especially unkind to me, my husband and daughter she treated fine and nobody understood. I felt like I was surrounded by dark clouds on a daily basis. She brought anxiety and depression onto me which led me down a path on thoughts on my own death. I felt like a hermit in my own home, sitting on the corner of my couch in the corner feeling like a cowering child. I've taken the verbal abuse for two years. Did you know being ignored and not spoken to at times is verbal abuse also? Lobg story short, it was going to have to be me gaining my life back!!! I read another lady's plight on here and it was like reading a book of answers. I called senior services, department on aging and explained to them what I was going through. They gave me the contact of a counselor who I emailed all my thoughts and experiences. I bore my soul like i needed to get everything out. She called me back and was floored with how I was feeling. She agreed with me that we as a family needed her out. Mind you, I called a senior agency for our county not asking for this, but for help on my situation. I turned to them, an agency that looks out for the well being of the elderly so that I was going to do whatever was in her best interest. They came and did a home visit, of course my mother was charming but stubborn. Within a short visit they assessed that we needed her out, to use the social worker's exact words "She needs to go, you need her out of here and get your lives back". I even had an eviction paper to complete and hand her giving her 30 days notice. After all she is considered a tenant in our residence. This lady recognized it was going to be her or me and that nobody had to live like this. I was miserable which trickled down to the relationship between my soul mate husband and my daughter who's now 26. My mother was a hermit too, no life, gave up on speaking to any family or friends, went nowhere. Social services wanted her to have her life back too, socialize and engage people and life again. To add more detail, the eviction paper was because she refused the thought of going anywhere. She didn't want to meet with anyone or have a life. But the situation needed to change, drastically and immediately. They were on her side, looking out for her well being first as well as considering mine. Well, my husband and I toured facilities and found one 10 minutes away that was perfect. She refused to tour with us but when it came to getting the papers signed at home, she refused that too. Social services reminded her that she indeed was being evicted. Well we made an appointment to meet with the intake lady at the facility and she went with us, calling me a vulture. When they asked if she had a POA, she said no but they already had copies of me being her POA. She was stubborn as hell but that pen ink flowed onto the paperwork. She only listed my husband and daughter as contacts too, lol. Well it's been several weeks now since she moved into her apartment and I've been healing at home, enjoying peace. I've learned to love and enjoy sunshine on my face and feel breezes again. I'm breathing!! Her old room is becoming my office so I can start a work from home job. My husband's been stripping wallpaper and prepping for paint, it's never been brighter in there! As for my mother, she's remarkably adjusted well! She gets out of her apartment for meals, socializes, is back to reading books. She's even called her two sisters who she hadn't spoken to in THIRTY YEARS!!! Social services was right, she needed her life back along with mine. I can only beg you, PLEASE don't let your life get away from you. See what senior services can do for her and for you! Salvage that relationship of love with your boyfriend! It's true, you only have one life and so does your mother. YOU and your mother need to stop living under pressure. I cannot stress this enough. Pour your heart out in an email to a social worker they recommend like I did. If I hadn't, I'd be either living in my car or dead by now. Don't get to the point that you feel like you're suffocating and can't breathe. LOVE YOURSELF as well as your mother! Sending you a virtual hug, FEEL IT!!! {{{HUGS}}}
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I am not trying to be rude; but have any of you looked at assisted living or nursing homes? If money is an issue - Medicaid can help with nursing home care. Also, many counties have subsidized housing for seniors who have a low income - the waiting lists are usually long - but it is an option.

Caregiving is hard and unfortunately many of those we care for have no clue what we sacrifice for them and they really don't care. I am taking care of my mom; she is 93 - has Alzheimer's and stage 3 bladder cancer. She has been with me 1.5 years. Before that I was driving to Ohio back and forth for two years caring for her. This situation is hard - it takes away your freedom - your life, your future.

You have to make a decision - how long do I want to do this? I made that decision. My husband and I said - two years max. My mom is on the waiting list for assisted living and I will take the next spot. She doesn't have that much money, but if I run out - than I will apply for Medicaid.

It's tough, but I am almost 60 and this is not how I want to spend the next five or ten years. I never thought my mother would live this long. The doctor told me she could live another 2-3 years as she is now.

It's okay to place our parents in other communities; that is why these facilities exist. What would happen if you could no longer care for her - she would be placed in one. Call your local agency for aging - see what is options are available to your mom. It's okay if you can't do it any more. Get some help.

If she doesn't like it "oh well" sounds like she will never be happy and that's life.
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To add, my two cents exclusively...to anyone thinking of moving their parent in with them, DO NOT!!!! There is always another way. I wouldn't even want a granny pod on my property. It's still too close to home. I've already told my children, DO NOT under ANY circumstances have me live with ANY of them!
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I hope someone can give you the answer to this, because I'm in the exact same situation. I'm the youngest of 5, one sibling passed away, so there are 4 now. But honestly it feels like I'm an only child because the others do nothing and offer no help. My dad died in 1999, so it's like i inherited my very codependent mom. It was fine for probably 10 years but then my brother died. Now it's like I'm being held hostage. With the exception of going to work, all i do is stay home because if i attempt to go out she turns on the guilt and calls people saying I'm going out and she don't know when I'm coming home. Honestly?! I'm going to a movie with a friend! Not joining the army and heading to Afghanistan!

She also likes to pretend illness. I've taken her to the doctors and/or urgent care and she'll say "nothings wrong" when they ask what's ailing her. So wait. Did i just lose a half days work to bring you to the doctor because i like the crappy cable they have in their waiting room?!?

I haven't had a vacation with friends in years. And you mentioned a relationship with a boyfriend? What is that? I've heard of those. Haven't had one of those in 15 years or more.

It's mentally and physically exhausting. I've gained 40 pounds and cry all the time. I m trying go keep my faith in the God. I have believe in Him. But am starting to feel He doesn't believe in me. It's like i can't do enough. I feel like i have a huge rock on my chest.

I hope someone gives you good advice on your issue and that you won't mind if i borrow the advice.
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I cannot give you answers but I can tell you that you're not alone. I've been taking care of my mother for about 13 years. My fathers so kind and gentle and catered to her hand and foot. He never said no to her once. When he died, I inherited all the responsibilities including being her entertainment team. At that point she was quite capable of taking care of herself but had no desire to. We build a MIL apartment for her and she settled in like it was an all inclusive resort. Fast forward 13 very very long years. At 89 she has tons of medical issues and will take any and all assistance she can get. I'm so burnt out I could cry 24/7. My husband and I no longer get along. I think I'd want a divorce but that would mean selling the house and she would have no where to live. So I stay in this little house of horror, keeping her life dandy. I know how you feel, what you go through, how hard you work, how many sacrifices you make and yes the guilt you feel because of frustration and anger. No one wants to be in this situation. We'll get through, we have no choice. In the meantime learn your lessons. Don't be dependent, don't grow old to suck the life out of your kids, and take what's left of their decent years. God willing I planning on taking myself into old age with a streak of independence, a smile, a bucket full of gratitude and assisted living when and if I need it. The end.
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Wow, I feel for all of you. I know the one piece of advice they always give on here is to avoid living with our having your parent live with you but sometimes that is the only way. I am lucky so far as my mother lives in my house in Florida and I still live in Ohio. She complains constantly about the house, the neighborhood, her junky car, prices of everything she has to buy (she only pays for her food and utilities - we pay for everything else) and when we go to visit she turns on the guilt and complains even more about the things SHE wants to see done to the house. Then waxes nostalgic for her crappy apartment that was full of mold and in disrepair that we ripped her away from to put her in a lovely home in Florida near the beach and with every amenity that she could want. But all she will do is stay in the house all day and complain. If anyone tries to get her to go anywhere she starts in with uncontrollable diahrhea.

I am afraid she has a rude awakening coming because my husband has gotten a job down there and we are beginning to move into the house. She is now demanding that I get a granny pod for her so she will have her own space....Those are like $100k and she won't believe me when I tell her so. She says she has seen them for about $896. So my hell will soon be beginning in earnest. I have found that it is easier if I just make my plans to go somewhere or do something and if she starts complaining I just say, well you can stay here as no one is inviting you to go or you can go to your room if you don't want to participate in the things we are doing. Usually she will sulk for a few minutes but if I start letting her control me before I move in; there will be no hope for me any my husband. Oh, I also have an adult handicapped son who is WAY LESS trouble than my healthy 81 year old mother.
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Sorry, I don't think one person should do this to a family. I would not put my marriage in jeopardy for a parent. Hopefully my husband will be around a lot longer than my Mom. There comes a time when ur needs should be met. I don't believe in going in debt for a parent. I don't believe in giving up ur life. Problem is its hard to explain this to a parent with Dementia. I would have been so angry my Mom would have heard it. Your Mom is not in the position to make decisions. Change is hard, but that is how it is. U hate to threaten but they become like children and that is how u need to deal with them.
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Dixie and all here, caring for a parent is draining physically but even more importantly emotionally and of course financially. Then when we are at the end of our ropes, we still continue to try to carry on. It became impossible for me about a year ago, and not because of the 24/7 I provided my mom as much as the family dysfunction. All that aside, we need to take care of ourselves.

I too, had a house fire almost two years ago now. The rebuild was more than a year and I had to care for mom through a good part of that. I gave up on the care last May, Mom moved early June. Time for the twisted sisters to step up. What did I hear from them? How was I going to help them clear out mom's house when I had my own to deal with. Moving back to mine, getting things out of storage, getting things cleaned for the move back to my home. And never an offer of assistance for what I needed to do for me. I drew the line, sissies would now have to deal with all of Mom's business as I had a life to get back and it was in shambles in every way possible.

We can only count on ourselves which is very difficult when we are so drained. I am still muddling through, moved from a state I had lived my entire life, all my kids and grandkids are there. Moved to an area that is not as competitive in terms of a workforce and have returned to my career. That isn't easy either, but I am grateful for the opportunity and am now in a small town after a very large city all my life. I am in the process of reinventing myself in my early 60's.

If we can provide care for a parent we can do anything. It take plenty of courage and determination for sure, but we are all very well eqipped. We just do nit understand that the caregiving has developed a very strong person that can do anything that we put our minds to! Best wishes to all of you. I must get up now and continue down this road of reestablishing my life and reinventing who I am.
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