I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Jeanette - I guess it's just one of those times when things feel a little overwhelming. I have 2 relatives or near-relatives (like my sis-in-law's mother) who are elderly and declining very rapidly and it's hard to watch, knowing that one day relatively soon, that's going to be Mom. She's already going downhill faster than expected, but one of these days, it's going to be a very marked decline. I was thinking yesterday, "How do I determine when she needs to go to the NH, finally? Do I wait til she has a stroke or some other major medical issue, or at some point, do I just say 'that's it' for me?"
I know I will wait until it's absolutely necessary, and hopefully, the decision is taken out of my hands - she knows that if she becomes completely unable to walk anymore, or requires any lifting, that she will need to go to a NH. She doesn't like the idea, but she understands. We've had long talks about this.
That could help you out.
If I go by these stages, mom has been in early stage 7 for 6 months or more.
Nothing in set in stone
Why the doldrums? Is it 34 outside and heavily raining since yesterday? LOL I barely got the trash cans to the curb. Those giant raindrops felt like frozen water. If ya wanna do an ice bucket challenge all you need to do is step outside!!
Is there a link to a site with the stages of AD that you're mentioning? I'd like to have that at hand to refer to. Pretty sure mom is in the late beginning to middle stages here. One sister keeps insisting that she's just depressed, but trust me...she's not here every day 24/7 to see what I see. No one is.
Have been thinking some long thoughts today.
Here's an interesting twist. Me personally, am happier that my mom's 80% incontinent. Those endless trips to the bathroom where nothing happens have ended. At first those dreaded BM's started to get to me... especially after a bout of constipation from H*LL!! I've got a system going to make things easier on her and me. Finding a way to accomplish this particular change in major important for YOUR sanity. A good bathroom spray, diaper genie, vast amounts of baby wipes, gloves, desitin and a lovely cleansing spray that's safe on the buns is my saving grace :)
Funny how one thinks one can't do certain things until one is tasked to do it. The will to survive is a strong force.
Now that I got that off my chest, when poop happens, you need to ramp up your Nurse Ratched...
Attendant Warren: Good morning, Miss Ratched.
Nurse Ratched: Good morning.
Attendant Washington: Good morning, Miss Ratched.
Nurse Ratched: Mr. Washington.
Miller: Morning.
Nurse Ratched: Good morning.
Nurse Pilbow: Good morning, Miss Ratched.
Nurse Ratched: Good morning.
Attendant Washington: Morning, Bancini.
Bancini: Morning.
Attendant Washington: How do you feel?
Bancini: Rested.
Nurse Pilbow: Medication time. Medication time. (Except here you would say, "Shower Time, Shower Time"
I had the same conversation this morning with Mom, but not about raisins:
Me: (upon getting out of bed and finding Mom's BM in the toilet, no paper with it, so she not only didn't flush, she didn't WIPE) Mom, you need to shower this morning.
Mom: Yeah...later.
Me: No, Mom, you need to do it this morning. You had a BM without wiping, so you're not clean. You need to shower.
Mom: I did? Uh oh. Ok.
(an hour passes, and she lays down for a nap)
Me: Mom, after breakfast, you need to shower.
Mom: Ok.
(Breakfast is eaten and she sits for another 20 minutes or so...)
Me: Ok, let's get in the shower, Mom.
Mom: (looking wistfully at her bed) But I want to lay down....
Me: No, Mom - you need to shower now. You can lay down afterwards. Let's get it over with and then you can lay down. You had a BM in the toilet this morning with no paper - so you didn't wipe.
Mom: (looking insulted) I did too wipe!
Me: Mom, there was no paper in the toilet - just your BM - so no, you didn't wipe.
Mom: I put the toilet paper in the trash.
Me: .......... (stunned silence, not sure what to say to that - but almost 100% certain she DIDN'T put the toilet paper in the trash - I empty that can every morning when I take my own shower, and I would have seen/smelled it if it was in the trash can!)
Mom: (putting on the pouty spoiled child face and voice) Really? I just want to lay down....
Me: No Mom....shower. Now. Come on, let me help you get up and get in there.
Mom: I can do it myself (and she gets up and shuffles to the bathroom, with me following her all the way so she doesn't get sidetracked and sit on the bed on the way through...otherwise she won't get up again)
(30 minutes pass while she sits in the bathroom doing nothing....)
Me: Mom?? Are you ready to get in the shower?
Mom: Yeah...in a minute.
(10 mins later)
Me: Mom?? Let me help you get in the shower.
Mom: Ok
(Finally gets in the shower...)
At this point, I just come out and collapse into my chair. It takes an act of Congress to accomplish some of the things we do every day....I swear.....
Me: Where did all the raisins go?'
Mom: I don't know (flat affect)
Me: Are you putting them on your Raisin Bran?
Mom: No
Me: Well, where did they go?
Mom: I don't know.
Me: Did Gremlins come in the night and take them (BIG MISTAKE)
Mom: (and this is kind of funny because she can't say Gremlins so she says something else, all very seriously) "What are 'Gemerlins (whatever) "I hope not!"
Not one to give up, I keep on...
Me: Well, where did they go?
Mom: Maybe someone took them. (again flat affect)
And it went on, and on, and on, until I just decided it was no longer funny.
Circular, circular where will it stop :)
She's in there now watching The Price Is Right. (All I can hear right now is, "A NEW CAR! "
Before, she was watching Let's Make A Deal, her new show. Seriously, ma, rap music?
At any rate, my aunt is my favorite aunt and I've always wished she was my mother, not my own mother.
I'm an only child and while I have three children of my own, we're all separated by living in different states.
So, it's getting lonely out there ...
The reason Dad wants to start driving was because I told them last month I had to limit my driving due to serious panic attacks I get while driving.... great, let's throw some major guilt onto my illness, just what I need :P
Dad grumbled, and I once again said that if he and Mom had moved to that retirement community years ago, they would have free transportation to go shopping or to the doctor [I will drive my folks to the doctor if it is near by].
Then I read Dad the riot act, that if he and Mom were in a serious accident that he would lose his house and all his wealth. Everything they worked so hard for the past 70 years. [I hate confrontation, so I am shaking just typing this]. I didn't mention injury because $$$ speaks louder with my parents.
But then there's the other issue that lurks in the back of my mind - if I move her into those undergarments, I fear she will simply sit there and urinate in them and not even bother to go to the bathroom, since she will know the undergarment will absorb it. She already does that with the pads and has lost the sensation below the waist to realize that she's wet. I keep after it and after her to use the bathroom frequently enough that we're *almost* able to keep it completely under control, but not quite. She'll have a few good days but then go a few weeks where I'm washing 3-4 loads of laundry a day that are nothing but her chair pads (the blue/white fabric pads like they use in the hospital), underwear and clothing.
Today's a shower day...got up to find she had a BM in the toilet but didn't wipe or flush...so she's GOT to get a shower.
Mom does use incontinence pads - she uses the Poise overnight pads - the heaviest with the most coverage front to back and side to side. She changes them when she remembers (which is rarely) or when I remind her (which is every time she goes to the bathroom) - but we usually end up doing the "bathroom dance", because she goes in, sits there for 20-30 minutes until I'm calling to her through the door to see if she's ok, then she comes out, having NOT changed the pad. I ask if she did, she says she did, then stops and says, "I *think* I did...." so I go check the trash can for a used pad, and find she didn't - so back in the bathroom she goes. This can go on for 4-5 bathroom trips some days. I told her she's going to wear a path right through the floor with all this. LOL
I insisted on her using the pads when I moved in and realized she was leaking urine all over the place and not cleaning up. She was wearing nothing but underwear at that point, so you can just about imagine the smell. The house smelled *so* bad from her urine leaks, her not showering at all (she couldn't tell me the last time she showered before I moved in - and the tub had a layer of dust in the bottom - so it had been a LONG time), Dad not being able to shower because of his leg wounds, and on top of that, the *smell* of his leg wounds. I don't think either of them had showered in over a year. (shudder) You needed a gas mask to walk in here. At the very least, the house smells better now.
I had a huge box of samples of incontinence undergarments sent from an online company, in all brands and all in the largest sizes they had - none worked. Mom is very short and very heavy, and has....well, to put it bluntly, she's got a big backside that sticks out quite a bit...and the undergarments will all go around her just fine, but they aren't tall enough to cover her backside. They stop just below the top of her "crack". (Sorry, that sounds bad...lol...no other way to say it.) We've all had ill-fitting underwear or cothing at some point that kept sliding down our butts...so we know how uncomfortable that is. I can't imagine dealing with it every day. Also, if she were to have something other than a urine accident, the result would be the equivalent of an infant having a diaper blowout. Trying to avoid that. So far, she doesn't have those kind of accidents (thank God, I know many of you deal with that on a daily basis) - so I'm counting my blessings and dealing with it as best I can. I suspect the washing machine will have to be replaced soon, though. I'm wearing it right out.
read an interesting story last week about the lumber jills in the uk in ww11 . women picked up the logging and sawmill work and i dont mean with modern chainsaws .
got the phsyco upstairs a big load of wood on the truck . she dont think she'll need more but she will . we aint heatin the upstairs with the kitchen oven this winter . her dad is out of town again . i have to wear the growl around here till he gets back ..
Using extra large underwaer on an ambulatory patient does allow them to leak around the legs. Try putting regular well fitting underwear over the protective one to keep them up snug against the body. If the patient is bed bound those that stick together at the side can provide better protection but tend to be hot and that may irritate the skin.
Sorry about your uncle but it sounds as though he is peaceful and his parting should be merciful.
FF I can only admire Robin Williams action in the light of his diagnosis. He could have gone somewhere that physician assisted suicide is possible but he chose to spare his family the pain of this. It was not an easy way to die but probaly the cleanest and well thought out. may he rest in peace.
Capt I suspect you will have to look further than the drug cart for your narcotics in the NH. I thought you would be more inovative than that and have a still bubbling in the bathroom
i personally feel like 3 feet of beat up monkey d**k . masonry work is still near non existant and ive cut a trainload of firewood since this time last year . got all of docs wood caught up and have moved to the forestry to cut more firewood . it pays exactly nothing . on jan 1 my quota rolls over and i can cut 20 more loads of firewood from the forestry . opec can cram it up their square asses , im keeping central indiana heated -- at least till my spine blows or docs house is ready to stone .
my aunt is doing pretty well . she gets her hearing aid in about a week and i hope it really helps her comprehension and QOL . shes at nh because of lack of living options moreso than dementia . i hope shes around for years . if my back blows her and i may become roommates . ill bust in and out of that narcotics cart like freakin houdini .. theyll buy me booze in a grand compromise ..
always thinkin ahead -----
On a cozy note, Mama sure is snuggled in over here with her little cat all curled up beside her....such a sweet sight... :)
Stripped the bed and started the washer. She's going through an increasing amount of clothing, bedding and underwear lately. I wish I could find protective undergarments to fit her. They fit "around" her, but they aren't tall enough - they only come to just below the crack of her backside (sorry, but no other way to say it). I can't imagine how uncomfortable that would be all day long, feeling like your undergarments are slipping down your backside because they're not tall enough to reach your waist.
So now I guess we're hiding the problem instead of dealing with it. Good thing I'm here, I guess...I can't imagine what the house would smell like otherwise. I asked her to please not cover up the bed when it's wet - she gave me a blank look and said, "Oh, I didn't realize it was wet!" (In her defense, maybe she didn't realize it, but this is a whole new level of "off" for her.)