I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Mom finally got up and I got her in the shower - it's just the resistance and refusal to do it that's so frustrating. I want so badly to get her on a schedule, but she fights me tooth and nail on that. (Not literally or physically, of course. It's more a battle of wills - mine vs hers.)
Mine has not started out all that great. I know it's a "me" thing, something I need to get over, but it irritates the hell out of me when I get up, take care of the pets, start laundry, start dishes or other housework, get a few emails done for my client, then gather all my stuff and take it into the bathroom to take a shower....only to have Mom pop up out of bed like a champagne cork at that precise moment, needing the bathroom - which means I might as well give up taking a shower for another hour or two, because she's going to sit in there for 20 minutes, by which time I might as well have made breakfast, and then I'll have *more* emails to do for my client. GRRRRRRRR. She has this uncanny ability to awaken just as I am either sitting down to do some work or about to get in the shower - and *that's* when she will wake up and need something. Some days, she's up and down every 10-20 minutes - those are the days that drive me batty.
We have one bathroom, and short of when I go to bed, it's the only place in the whole house I can go to be alone with my thoughts. And many times, I can't even get that. I guess I'm just reacting to being back from a few days away and realizing just how much I was putting up with before I left. It's a harsh reality to come back to. I keep hoping that one day I will be able to afford the $100 a week it would cost to have the caregiver come in for a couple of hours each day to take care of Mom in the morning or the evening so I can have some down time. Not sure it will ever happen, but it's a nice dream to have....
So while I've done all this now, and at 10:05 am, still sitting here in my nightgown, I tell her she needs to shower, because I won't be able to get in there for a while until I get these emails done....she looks at me with glazed eyes and says, "yeah." And I know what's coming. She's going to want to lay back down again, after only being up for 30 minutes - long enough to eat and go to the bathroom. And that's *exactly* what happened.
I guess I'm being selfish in wanting just 15 minutes of uninterrupted time in the shower, without having to re-dress myself after I've started undressing and having to delay my shower for more than an hour because she's up again.....the small things like this are maddening. Guess that's my whine for the day. I just want to run away and never come back on days like this. Yeah, right.....
I'm not going to panic over one puke. But if she does it again..? She won't. She'd better not.
When equipment was deemed to be past it's prime it was collected by one of the super religeous and packed up to be sent out to the missionaries. And it had to be very well past it's prime. Duct tape had not been invented but if it had we would have made good use of it.
Veronica I vividly remember my first encounter with a suppository. The nurse handed me this little pot with something the size of a large broad bean in it, and I said "what, you just - ?" making kind of under and up gestures and she said "yes, just like that." Like it was nothing! But in the pregnancy years I don't know what I'd have done without haemorrhoid remedies and am now much less squeamish. Come to think of it, I think once you've had a baby you stop worrying about most indignities, don't you?
And all the nappy changing techniques are coming back to me, too, like riding a bike I suppose. You're right, we'll get there somehow. Thank you!
I was AMAZED at the difference ear wax cleaning did for both my grandmother and my father. It was a big difference in their ability to hear. For my grandmother, I used the drops over a period of time. For my dad, I took him to ENT appointment and they cleaned out with an instrument plus gave a regimen of drops to loosen the rest. It makes such a difference not having to YELL ALL THE TIME and also not having to deal with TV/radio turned way up in volume. I still used hearing aids for my grandmother, but my dad didn't need them at all and I was shocked about that... he just had so much blockage in his ears he appeared to have severe hearing loss.
My point - even if they fuss about it, keep after it. It's worth it for them and you. :)
I meant, are they available as suppositories?!
Please tell me you haven't encountered people sticking oral meds in places they were never intended for??? Oh BOY!
Mind you, the number of holiday makers who come back from France complaining that the French pharmacies had given them tablets the size of hippopotamus pills and they could barely swallow them… Now that's funny :)
As far as the aspiration is concerned that of course is a real danger so make sure she is sitting up straight when she is eating and drinking and only small mouthfuls of whatever they have suggested. If she does choke you may have to do the heimlick manouver. If it is just a little liquid lie her on her face and cup your hands and softly bang on her back up and down the rib cage and it should run out of her nose by gravity. if you are careful it should not happen so just figure out what to do and then file it away
my gosh a tax lady called Ruth it makes a change from Mrs Heavenhelpyou of Miss Imissedtheboat with the accent on the Miss. You"ll get by CM once you get into a routine with Mum things will settle down and you can go out and check the crocus aand snow drops. We are getting minus 10 f tonight so no going out for hubby's birthday dinner. I'd pop round and give you a hand if I lived closer.
Veronica, the District Nurse said mother was "beautifully" cared for :-D !!! So that perked me up. Never mind that my hair is in rats' tails, I've had the same clothes on since I don't know when and I broke down in hysterics on the phone to the tax people this morning - would you believe my return is due tomorrow and the STUPID online service is asking me the STUPIDEST questions you ever heard and I don't know what it's talking about and my mother's had a stroke and I can't cope boo-hoo-hoo… Anyway, the very nice tax lady, Ruth - aren't they pally these days? It must be some new government initiative - shared my year of birth and we bonded over it. She can't stop them fining me £100 if I don't meet the deadline but she's put a note on my file so if I have to appeal they will look on it kindly. Can't say fairer than that.
The GP called and he's coming round to see her on Tuesday. I'm sure this is unconnected with his also having heard rumours that our pub has recently opened an Indian restaurant (not bad, either, considering). My big neurosis at the moment is aspiration pneumonia but I'm going to have to calm down about it. If it happens, it happens. She can't not eat or drink.
Oh bugger - I forgot to ask the GP about two drugs you can't crush and she's started spitting out sideways, cat-style. I hope there are liquid versions because otherwise it'll be suppositories. Heaven help us. Can you give mononitrate p.r.?
I'm rambling - off to see to lunch and then A NAP. For both of us!
I'm trying to forgive myself for being crabby and horrible all evening and tonight. I have had six hours in bed since Monday night, I am doing seven of the eight care shifts cited as mother's 'essential care needs' and if the wonderful Liz (who's supposed to be my respite carer on Monday afternoons only) hadn't stepped up three days running to do the eighth I would probably be properly psychotic. State regulation requires mother to have 2 x carers, 4 x per day for 1-2 hours per visit to cover washing, dressing, transferring, toileting, feeding, turning, medications etc etc etc. If only the State would also be so kind as to tell our social worker where she is supposed to find these people? Oddly, there seem to be very few intelligent, capable, patient, gentle, experienced professionals prepared to work for just a squeak over minimum wage at an exhausting, smelly and hugely underrated job. I count my blessings that Liz either doesn't know or (more likely) doesn't care what her work is actually worth.
ACK! Ack, ack, ack. I'm tired.