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Mom has been in the hospital 4 times since January. Once for a mild heart attack, twice for hernia bowel obstruction, and most recently fractured hip from a fall. She's been in rehab for one week so far and wants to go home. She has dementia which has been steadily progressing. She doesn't understand why we can't come in to see her. We window visit twice per day and one video call. My brother and SIL also visit at least once per day. My problem is how do I tell her that she's going to be staying in the NH permanently after rehabbing is done? I feel horrible when she almost cries about coming home. I've been her sole caregiver through all of this since she refused outside help after a few weeks of visiting nurse, PT an OT. Because I'm the health care proxy and POA, my brother says I have to make a decision about her staying permanently. I feel so guilty even thinking about it and so anxious. I am 60 with my own health issues including a broken foot but I persevered through all of it to keep my mom home. I am so torn. She doesn't even realize that she has dementia so broaching the subject is tough. Any thoughts on what to say or not say is much apprectiated.

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tettwa, so many people on this forum have been in your shoes and understand the pain of this decision. It is ok to tell your mom a "therapeutic fib" that she can come home when the doctor says she can (because he/she won't be saying this actually). Just encourage her to keep doing the rehab which is good for her in any case.

You are not a bad person for making this decision. You need to take care of yourself first and foremost, or you won't be there for your mom! Her having both physical and cognitive issues, which will both intensify as time rolls on, means you will be tending to her 24/7 every single day and be completely overwhelmed as you will have no real life. Not many can do this, or want to. Please don't feel guilty -- I had to do it with my MIL, so I get it. May you gain peace in your heart as you adjust to this new arrangement.
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tettwa May 2020
Thank you for your insight.
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I am sorry to hear this and I went through this with my mother and the deeper her dementia got the worse it got. I ended up trying to divert the direction of the conversation or say a therapeutic fib like I will talk with the social worker or check with the doctor here. Earlier, I did have the social worker come and explain it to her, but she would soon forget that. I even would say things like, it's not up to me, it's up to the doctor to decide.

Basically, you can't reason with someone who has dementia and it gets worse over time.

It sounds like she's where she needs to be at this time of her life and her level of health. She would only get more difficult to care for at home even with your broken foot well.

I hope you did not promise to not place her in a nursing home when you were a little girl? That's not realistic for you don't really know what you are promising. If your mother asked you to promise, then that was not fair.

It may help to talk about your feelings of guilt with the NH social worker either on the phone or virtually if he or she can do that.

I don't think telling her she has dementia would help! She's either going to get upset and strongly deny it or forget that you told her.

You really can't tell someone with dementia what to do. You have to find ways to invite then to do what you want them to do. Like, mom how about I ask the social worker or doctor to talk with you about that? That's guiding without telling and she'll likely forget it anyway.

I wish you the best.
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tettwa May 2020
Thank you for your wisdom.
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Sad all around
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lealonnie1 May 2020
What's truly 'sad' is getting to an age and place in life where chronic illness and falling is the new norm. And then a 'child' is forced to put her own health aside to care for a parent at home even when it's literally impossible to do so, and then hear how 'sad' it is.
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Please take care of your own health. I don’t mean that lightly, your mother needs you to be healthy for her so you can be a good advocate for her in her new setting. Put aside the guilt, you’re doing the best you can for her by providing a safe place where she can receive care around the clock by people properly trained to do so. As for telling her it’s permanent, I hope you’ll never go down that road. It’ll be a no win conversation. Change the subject, make it about her doctor's orders, whatever you need to say to move forward and not have a endless looping conversation where you’ll both feel unsatisfied and sad. I wish you the best
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tettwa May 2020
Thank you for that. I also am a daughter of 1930 mom.
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My advice would also be not to tell her she's staying permanently. Find a way to divert the conversation and continue to do so. Trying to have a family meeting to explain this to her could just backfire on you and upset her terribly or it's even very possible she won't remember the conversation. I'm sure she does not know she's got dementia- -I've been told that most who have it do not know they have it (which is why it gets so dangerous for them). I've also been told that some nursing home residents keep asking to go home for 20+ years and we need to remember that it can be hard to hear that question over and over, but the facts don't lie in terms of the care she needs and will continue to need. The elder frequently does not understand exactly how much care they need and therefore they don't understand the ramifications of providing that care to them. My interaction with nursing homes over many decades has taught me over and over that many, many residents believe that THEY themselves could walk out the door tomorrow and live on their own but the other residents are the ones who need to be there. Behind every NH resident there is a long story as to why they are there - it's just that elder may not acknowledge or remember much of that story. In some cases, elder does not even know or understand all that was done on their behalf prior to NH placement.
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tettwa May 2020
Thsnk you for the kind sentiment.
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How about answering with something that’s truthful but not so dreaded and final? Like.... Let’s see how things are going at the end of the Summer, which will turn into... Let’s see how things are going and what the Dr says after Thanksgiving....after the Holidays....and put a sparkle in your eye (it’s probably already there through the tears).
I found that my Mom took her demeanor and attitude from the way I presented, and my tone of voice. I’m so sorry that you’re having to go through this, and that you’re having to reverse roles with your adult parent. It’s so unfair!!!
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tettwa May 2020
Thank you for taking the time to give advice.
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It isn’t necessary to tell her or ask her or talk to her about anything but her present care and moving into the future.

You made a good decision for her based on HER needs AND YOURS.

It is very common for an elderly relative to plead to “go home”, and that period of adjustment is torment for both the resident and the caregiver, but you have to convince yourself that her safety and care are more important than what she says or how what she says make you feel.

Your brother is wimping out on you, so you can comfortably ignore his input. Guilt is a waste of your valuable energy. You know what needs to be done, and why.

Hope this is the hardest thing you ever have to do, because if you can acknowledge this as such, you can move forward in the peace of knowing that you’ve accomplished something you’d never thought you’d have to do.

By the way, at one week, She actually may be seeing too much of you and your brother right now. See what happens if you alternate days. She needs to begin to learn to trust her staff.

All hopes for a successful adjustment for all of you.
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tettwa May 2020
Thsnk you for your kind words.
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I'd tell her it's doctor's orders that she stay in skilled nursing, that she's had too many health issues at home so it's no longer an option to stay there; it's too dangerous. If and when her doctor says it's okay to go home, only THEN can such a thing be considered. And only tell her that if necessary. Otherwise, she's in Skilled Nursing, per doctor's orders. Period

I'd avoid the 'dementia' discussion entirely. My mother has moderate dementia and lives in Memory Care. To hear her tell it, however, there's nothing wrong with her at all. It's all the OTHERS who are stupid morons and belong there, not her. She's always ALWAYS had a strong need to feel 'better than' so I let her keep her delusions of grandeur. Sometimes she will ask me to come pick her up and get her out of there, since she 'doesn't belong' in such a place, but I tell her that she IS exactly where she belongs: In an environment where everyone cares beautifully for her and she has attention 24/7, which she would get nowhere else. If she presses the subject, I tell her the only other alternative is Skilled Nursing (she was there for rehab last year and actually liked it BETTER than she does the ALF she's at now). Little does she know that she's running out of money for private pay and will need to go to Skilled Nursing next year ANYWAY.........I just avoid that topic entirely.

Wishing you the best of luck with a sticky situation.
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tettwa May 2020
Thank you for enlightening me.
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Yes, I agree. You are seeing her too often and that is making her focus on getting out. She only needs to hear from someone once a day. Or less; it might make you feel less guilty but why would you feel guilty? She is unable to stay in her house; that is not your fault. She has dementia and cannot understand what is happening around her; also not your fault. They always want to go home; not possible. You do have the right to consider yourself and your needs; you should not feel guilty about that. Just keep putting her off and don't tell her the truth; she cannot understand it anyway. I agree with leolonnie1, tell her doctor said she has to stay for now. I assume that the rehab facility has a nursing home bed for her to transition to?
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tettwa May 2020
Yes they do have a bed. Thank you for the insight.
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My dad was also in rehab following a fractured femur and hip. He would not cooperate with PT enough to be able to walk again, therefore he was wheelchair bound. He also had dementia. The rehab where your mom is should be having a care conference with you and any other family before discharge. Your mom can attend too. Sometimes this is good because they hear it from them and not you as to what the next steps are in her care. We chose not to have my dad attend because of his dementia. Anyway, the PT, OT, ST, Nurses etc and facility doctor should attend and make the recommendation of her care continuing in long term care if that’s appropriate. I asked the facility doctor to go with me to tell my dad that he needed more care and would have to move. He was very agreeable because I don’t think he grasped what it meant at the time. I was amazed but then he became different when he realized he was moved permanently. You have every right to do otherwise, but if this is recommended, I would go with it and not take her in to your home. It will not be easy to have to explain to her So perhaps have the doctor do it. Put on a thick skin as you go through this and lose the guilt. Dad was accusatory and angry towards me as it was all my fault. But I knew that was the level of care he needed. This is the hardest part, I totally understand what you are facing.
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Tookie May 2020
It is sometimes helpful to tell my dad we are doing something because the dictor says so, but he already told his doctor that assisted living wasn't gonna happen. He actually needs memory care. He would rather die in his own home, no matter the consequences.
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Allow the NH to help do this or maybe even the social worker.....
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Parise May 2020
You can be there though to mediate.
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I struggled with this placement also..I feel your pain. My mom 6 weeks later is still packing up weekly for her “move home”. She has dementia and on the rare occasion knows she needs to be where she is. She will tell me “I need nursing home care”.. Luckily my mom told me at Easter {pre memory care placement} when the time is right I should place her and not listen to her pleas to leave. She has Lewy Body dementia and she gets fairly clear at times. Covid Lockdown is destroying her quality of life. She would be ok if I could visit frequently, take her out for rides etc. Sadly we have no options but to ride this out.
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I have a 100 year old mother at home and i am currently going through the same thing. I made a decision that I can’t keep her home safely as her dementia is progressing rapidly. I am her POA, and although I do have outside aides to help me, she calls out for me and I am always there. When she is in a nursing home I won’t be there to console her when she cries. That being said, it is not safe for me to keep her home. I have to have back surgery in the midst of all of this. I try to tell her that we are moving, but I don’t think she understands. Even if I can’t get her to understand, I am moving forward to implement the nursing home solution.

What is helping me with the decision is this: My mom is on a journey to leave this world. I think she knows it. As she moves into a nursing home, although I will visit every day, there will be a separation. Eventually she will get used to it and she will continue on her journey.
I don’t want her to leave her home. But, as I discern my decision, I realize that keeping her home will serve only to fulfill my need to see her rather than her need to go on her journey. It’s hard, and I spend much time crying, but it is the right thing to do for HER. It’s all about her journey, not my needs.
You are doing the right thing.
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“Mom, we need to move forward, and make plans for your ongoing care.”

Write it down and rehearse it.

Wait for the opening, take a deep breath, release.....and say it with conviction you have made the first step in planning your future.
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You must realize - she has dementia. There is no way on earth she will comprehend or understand what is going on. It is useless to tell her and explain. In this situation, the best you can do is "distract" leading her to think it is temporary and that you need respite because YOU are ill and are having problems. Defer the actual facts. Change the subject. Even if they could understand, they do not want to know or hear that so do not tell them. People like this will always refuse help sooner or later if it is not their child, etc. Yo have to face the fact that it is what it is, she is where she has to be. This is YOUR time to live and take care of your own physical issues - you can't do the impossible without harming yourself. You have to be strong - you must now take care of yourself first. Perhaps some medication may make her less upset so talk to the doctors. This is just a horrible part of life but there is no other way.
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So...since she refused outside help and you're the sole care giver STOP feeling guilty! My sister and I are in the same boat as you but there's2of us and at times it's more than we can handle. You could simply explain that because she refused outside help, this is where it has gotten her and now with her injury it is now impossible for her to be home. Do not let her put it back on you because SHE WILL!
Make your decision and if anyone objects, ask them if they would like to be her caregiver permanently and with no help, then when they say no, simply say I rest my case and go on doing what you need to do with your life. Each time you visit mom, she will repeat that she wants to go home. Repeat that again because she refused help this is what happened and nothing can be done. Do NOT take her home...even for a visit or the cycle starts again. Enjoy your free time to live your life. You can still go visit mom. This is on her.
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TouchMatters May 2020
Its easy to tell someone to 'stop feeling guilty.' Although it is processing through the underlying feelings, history, relationship, letting go - and more - that needs to worked through in order for a person to transform their feelings. It doesn't automatically happen because someone says 'stop.' Telling someone to 'stop' is an intellectual directive. Guilt is an emotional and psychological reaction. I'm sure you know this and it is a matter of semantics.
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First off, a person with dementia is not a person you should try to reason with. Their thought process, due to how their brain is functioning now, is not where it allows or should be expected to think the same as before. Do not try to explain things to her and get her to understand. And I would not even tell her she has dementia. With this disease, it is best that you say only what needs to be said. Like, "The doctor said" followed by this is what is needed now. Keep it simple.
Just know in your heart, you are doing the very best for her.

Believe me, they always want to go home, even if at home.
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I was about to say almost exactly what Matrylepete just said. Reasoning and explanations are irrelevant. Deal with the present moment. Telling her she has Dementia would be meaningless. If she is progressing with hip rehab, praise her for doing a good job.

Do you have NH placement arranged yet? When she is discharged from Rehab, help her move to her "new room."

You and your brother and your SIL are doing an amazing job of visiting. Continuing to be your mother's 24/7 caretaker is too much. Accept that you cannot manage that level of care and continue to make the best placement arrangements you can..
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Mysteryshopper May 2020
Definitely the "new room" wording works well. They can also be told "Someone needs the room you're in now (it's probably true anyway), so we have to move you until we get things straightened out." The "straightening out" part is probably also true as there will no doubt be paperwork and financial things that need to be done on elder's behalf for a permanent placement. Trying to explain the totality and gravity of their situation will be lost on them. Most do not truly comprehend how much help they really need and many will never acknowledge (or do not know/remember) how much has already been done for them.
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Feeling guilty is normal. You can not make decisions based on how it makes you feel, it should be based on what is the best solution for the one you love. She is lost in time and it is extremely scary for her. The best thing is to tell her she will be going home in a few weeks. Then bring home to her. Furniture, pictures, clothes, blankets nitnaks, and anything that will remind her of home. Set up the NH room like her room at home. and when she askes to go home tell her in a few weeks, and repeat. When she get to her NH. Tell her you brought home to her. And that you will always be near to her. Give plenty of hugs and kisses when you can. If you still have to use a window , make signs with kisses and hugs, hearts and I Love Yous!
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Others have mentioned this, so I will chime in on this small digression from the main point: if you promised your mother that you would never put her in a nursing home/rest home/whatever she feared, do NOT worry about it.
1) The mother to whom you made that promise is not the same person you are now concerned about, she was worried but still competent to make a decision then, she is no longer competent to know her needs.
2) You are not the same person who made the promise, you have been changed through maturation and through a greater understanding of her current needs.
3) The facility she now needs probably bears little resemblance to the one she feared decades ago. The thing she feared was probably a poorly staffed storage facility for unwanted elders waiting to die and ignored by their families. That was a stereotype many years ago that was not completely true in its time and is not completely true now. Depending on finances, you are taking care to place her in the best place for her, you will not forget her, and you will continue to care for her, whether she understands that or not.

My own mother made that plea back in the '60's based on misinformation but she has admitted in later years that her request was not right or fair. Although she still wants to remain in her own home and does not realize that she really is not able to care for herself adequately, she does acknowledge that the time may come when she will need more care. My sisters and I have told her that she will need to have residential care if she can no longer clean herself or dress herself, if she can no longer get herself from her bed to her chair, or if she can no longer get herself from her chair into our cars. She agrees--for now. My sisters and I are all in or near our 70's and cannot assist her in those things. If the time comes when those conditions come about and we will need to pressure her to accept residential care, that old promise will hold no weight.

It is sufficiently difficult to watch your mother's condition deteriorate until she bears little resemblance to the powerhouse of your youth. It is unkind to yourself to shoulder guilt about an old promise that neither of you really understood. Taking care of yourself is the best gift you can give to your own children.
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I struggled with how to do this many times. What I discovered is that with dementia they don’t remember what you told them. I tried telling my Mom a couple times. Each time was a struggle and a lot of begging to come home and a tear filled departure. Now I just tell her when she gets better and can walk and stand on her own that she can go home. I don’t even discuss that we sold her house. When she asks for a certain item I do my best to find it & bring it to her or tell her if I can’t locate it. That has put an end to the tear filled begging to go home. This way it is in her court. I hope that she’ll at least try to stand and walk some for the aids to keep her strength up. I have gotten to the point that I don’t take her out at all. Just to hard to do.
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I told my mom that she can come home from the NH when she gets better.

I remember my dad asking my if he had to stay in AL. I shook my head yes and it killed him. It still haunts me.
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With dementia, you have to balance your answers somewhere between honesty and what will give your parent less stress. I like the answer of setting parameters such as "when you can walk; stand on your own". It's honest and encourages them to work on rehab, assuming they are going through rehab after a fall. The doctors and rehab staff told us my father belonged in memory care after his fall, so when he went "home", he went directly to a new apartment that we had set up for him with some of his belongings. He never really understood that it was his new home, although we told him it was. He thought it was another step in rehab. Then he never mentioned it again. We remained active in his life, encouraged visitors and decorated the place on holidays and continued to take him out to eat and go places, all of which is difficult to do these days. I know he would not have understood the virus and all the current restrictions to provide for his safety. He didn't particularly like group eating but I encouraged it. Had the TV on too much. I was hoping for a better activities program but tried to make up the difference ourselves so he wouldn't get sedentary and bored, which he eventually did. But there was someone checking on him every hour in case he needed help using the bathroom or to clean him up if he didn't make it. They were generally cheerful and kind to him. I knew he was eating a more balanced diet on a regular basis. When we couldn't get to church, the pastor brought the service to them. It was a great relief for me to be able to go about my business and sleep through the night without worrying about him laying on the ground, unable to summon medical help or answering alerts in the middle of the night. I couldn't lift him by myself and he was tired of going to the hospital. NH wasn't a perfect solution but he wasn't alone and fearful. Once in awhile, he would ask me why he couldn't figure some things out and I would tell him he had dementia, which makes it harder. He would scoff at me and say he didn't and I would leave it at that. He was very surprised to hear he was 90 years old and I would just say, "Well, you're as old as you feel and you must not feel 90." Cheerful and light made him happy. And his comfortable old bed.
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If the facility social worker is not equipped to help you deal with you and your mothers mental health issues. Get a referral from your Dr. for you to see a psychologist. He will help you with your needs and help you "how to relate" to your mother. You can be there for her "dependency needs" but the facility provides her physical needs. You need to have "peace" in doing what you and your mother needs.
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Since you have already decided that your Mom should stay in the NH permanently, you do not need to tell her the truth. When I placed my Mother in the NH she also cried to go home. I told her she could go home when she gets completely well. For now, she needed to stay in the NH because they have 24/7 Doctor and Nurse to take care of her. If she complains that she is not getting rehab therapy just tell it will resume after a recess, and there will group therapy with other patients in the building. Be creative and make it easier on yourself and your Mom. (You can always bring her home later, if you decide.)
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Mysteryshopper May 2020
Thanks for mentioning the rehab aspect of this. It's SO hard for elders who become permanent placements to understand why they are not getting rehab therapy anymore. Even those who are confused in general do notice when they aren't getting rehab anymore - which leads to "How will I ever get out of here if they don't fix me" and the like. Elders frequently think they can leave the facility and live on their own and should be allowed to do so. "If I'm not getting therapy anyway, then why do I have to be here?" (Ummmm.... you're no longer on the rehab wing dear, so you're not getting rehab therapy). If we try too hard to explain it, then we end up back being tempted to try to reason with someone who cannot understand.
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Your mother is in the NH for a reason. You cannot and should not hang onto guilt, else it eats you up and you faint and fall ill. Prayers and big hugs sent to you.
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Dementia means exactly that: living in only the moment in comfort. Familiar belongings?..to distract Mom? Sorry to hear about her conditions and hope she will feel better soon.
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Yes, this is so familiar and so hard to deal with! My Mom went through a similar set of medical problems including two falls. She also doesn't realize she has dementia and felt she was OK at home. The last time she fell and was in the hospital, then rehab, my brothers and I decided it was best that she stay in the NH. She would have eyes on her most all the time and a nurse or aide would be around if she needed help. I always felt terrible every time she said she was going home "tomorrow" so I finally started responding, "Really? The doctors haven't told me that yet" and then changed the subject. Most of the time that works. But, it has gotten better now that she has made friends and there's always activity going on to keep her occupied. She even, on occasion, will refer to her room as "home" now which is a relief!

I'm sorry you have to make the decision on your own, that must be very hard. But you obviously want to do what you feel is best for your Mom and your decision is made out of love for her. Don't allow guilt to take over, it's not warranted or healthy for you.
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These conversations are never easy. Some, who have NO intention of actually helping, will tell you that you should shoulder all of the responsibility yourself. You owe them nothing. I had some pretty good luck in that, for my Dad, I printed "signs' - put in plastic page keepers. As simply as possible, what was happening or, going to happen. I left them in his room. Typically, it was the first thing he wanted to discuss. It helped.
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I am going through the same thing now. My Mother had her second stroke at the end of January. The hospital recommended she got to a rehab because her left side was paralyzed. made some improvements but her PT said she was lazy and didn't work hard enough. They informed in their appendand she needed 24 hour care.

I struggled with what to but decided on assistant living facility. I dicussed it with her and her case worker discussed it with her. She has currently been there a month and is still getting better, but she want to come home and always asked when she can come home. she does not understand about the virus she is not sure where she lives and thinks she is 11 years younger then what she is. She dementia and I stuggle everyday should U bring her home. I feel so guilty about this and second guess myself every time I see her.

I feel I made the correct decision she like the place she is at, and has lots of things and friend to keep her busy. if she came she would site by herself most of the day or just lay in the bed. I believe she is much better off where she is and is getting better can then she would with us, but she does not understand that.
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