I seriously love my grandma but I don't think she loves me. I don't get it she always asks me to help her, and I do. And for some reason she tells me "YOU DO NOTHING, YOU NEVER HELP ME, WHEN YOU ASK ME FOR HELP I'M NOT HELPING YOU!" I don't get it. Today, I was with my sister coloring, and when we were done, I wanted to mix her gel pen's with mine. So I did, and my sister started to cry so then I believe my grandma heard her cry and came to our room she was like, blah, blah, blah, blah, do not mix them, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, we need to understand her, and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I was triggered, like am I supposed to know? And then I was like "Ok! I didn't know!" And she said I'm gonna get sick because of the anger and just tried to get on a fight with me, not physically of course but verbally. So since me and my sister were coloring on the floor with some pillows my grandma said, "PUT THOSE PILLOWS ON YOUR BED" And I told her, that I cleaned the floor. And again got mad at me. Yesterday, she ALSO started her childish drama about something DUMB. Seriously just dumb. Since we came to the USA, (cause we lived in another country) my grandma has changed a lot! In Thanksgiving me and my cousin wanted a sleepover, and my grandma was like "No" and I said pleaseeee cause all kids will say that, so she pushed me to my room. I repeat, PUSHED ME, I coudn't even say bye to them cause my grandma freaking pushed me to my room! That was the first time I even thought of killing myself and since that day I started being more depressed. So whatever, when she pushed me to my room I locked the door and started crying and texting my mom to come home (cause she was at work) I just couldn't believe my grandma and my grandma will probably keep on being mean to me forever. I always try to be nice to her but I'm getting a lot meaner now because of who? MY GRANDMA. The sad part is that she lives in my house with my mom and sister. And whenever I try to tell her why she's acting like this? She gets even more mad like what? Thanks of her
I'm acting like this.