So when do u know it's beyond "standard" caregiver stress and at a point for counseling?
I am tired of feeling angry & alone and just empty inside. It seems like anything and everything just frustrates and upsets me. I know they say anger can be a cover for pain which I think may be part of it. I've been caring for my paralyzed wife for 8 years now and I'm only 49. Our future is pretty much defined and there is no real "relationship" beyond that. I get up....go to work and go back home to what feels like a second job. I am very involved with her life and medical needs to try and help her life be better (pain management, physical therapy, insurance battles etc) but I don't feel respected or appreciated (Yes I have tried to share that with her). I feel desperate to find ways to bring joy into my life and sometimes wonder if it's at a level of being bipolar. I really can't see a therapist having a clue to what I go through and think I would just get aggravated at any of their coping or "me time" suggestions. It's like I know the answer already and this is just my life to manage. I get episodes of being happy and mentally focused and wonder if I am chemically imbalanced and if there's a way to test that. Is this depression, anxiety, stress, thyroid problems????
Is there medication to just help take the edge off and let me feel more relaxed and less anxious. I know my hands are full and think the stress comes from anything new that comes along like the straw on the camels back. It's easy to feel justified when that new piece of straw is something big but most of the time they all feel just as heavy and upset me equally. That's usually when I reflect back and wonder "what the heck is wrong with me?"