Please respond to this, I am losing my mind. Everyday I get around 4hours of sleep, I provide inhome 24/7 total care. I have two young kids, cannot attend their activities. My grandmother will not talk to me and if she does comment it's to critique. I am 35 and married, my husband is always running the kids around or out with friends. I cannot afford respite care and since none of the family will put up with her, I am alone. This is the only place I feel comradery. I've always been extremely social with an excellent career, but since I moved her in I cannot work. I have tried to stay PRN at the hospital but, I cannot find an aide that is punctual. I exercise for my sanity but just realized that I have lost 42 pounds in two months, how do you not notice that? My hair is falling out and I cannot make myself eat. Watching my gma lick her plate makes me nauseated. I really need to hear from someone, please be kind, I am at the end of my rope. It will be six months before I can get her in a nursing home, and hopefully I can go on the vacation I have had planned for two years. Thank you for listening, I pray for you all daily.