So, here's a super quick details:
Age 18-24 I was at home while I went to school/worked. And I was super depressed because of whatever reasons and my parents were constantly sick. It wasn't a uplifting environment to live in.
After college I had no direction, I couldn't find a job so I was still at home.
Then my dad died when I was age 25. My mom and him basically took care of each other. My mom having 13 back surgeries and heart problems. My dad also had heart problems.
So at age 25 I had to then step up and take care of my mother which is 67 now. My brothers had their own lives and families.
I've been taking care of my mom since my dad died and now I'm 30 years old and I'm really wanting a life on my own. I want a husband and possibly kids before I get too old. I also would love to travel and maybe even live somewhere else.
At least I'm running my own business from home now. So I can help take care of my mom and also earn a living. I also do go out with friends once in a while, but nothing like I should be doing.
I realize I'm in a unique situation because most caretakers are older women/men - maybe around 50/60ish, that have already had some sort of life. Have already had kids and have done things.
I feel so hopeless sometimes. And I guess it's my own fault because my mom has offered to move to a Assisted Living Facility. But I'm scared to trust someone else to help her like I do, but I know it's probably best for my sanity and hers too.
I just needed to vent. Are there any other people out there that are in a similar situation?