I'm really struggling lately and feel I'm sinking into depression. My mam is in a dementia facility and although she is settled at times,when I go to see her she is so happy and because she thinks I'm her mammy she clings to me and she thrives when I'm there. Carers couldn't get her to eat yesterday but when I arrived she ate so much and her whole demeanor changed. We played games and listened to music and she was happy. But she only seems to be like this when I'm there give or take the odd day of eating really well. I'm struggling with knowing how scared and sad she is when I'm not there and I'm just crying all the time. I can only visit twice a week because of work but I'm so sad that I want to give up my job so I can see her more but I live alone so my only income is my wages. I just want her to be happy and to thrive but knowing she is sad without me is killing me. I feel I'm letting her down massively and that I'm to blame for her going downhill. I'm so desperately sad and heartbroken. Someone please help me.