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I have brothers, 2 of them, very well off brothers. I'm not bitter that they are well off, I am bitter that for 8 years I cared for my mom while they hung out and did things together and hardly came to see her while I took the brunt of all her care and the side effects of her disease. I was always to blame for everything. There came a point the last 2 years of her life I was calling 911 for her anywhere from once every month to once every 2 weeks. My brothers had to conference call to do hospice leaving me to sign the paper work even when they had POA. I feel like they left me holding the bag on 100% of everything. But when things were bad I had both of them in my face telling me how I was failing her I can't count the fights in the ER that I would be crying and have a brother in my face yelling at me calling me names. I was never certified in caregiving but I did the best I could and I knew mom better then they ever tried too. I was the one fighting with doctors for more tests. While they sat at jobs I was in hospital rooms I was arguing with doctors on mom's behalf. I was on call 24/7. They came and saw her when it was convenient for them (they lived in the same state). I also want to add that 3 years prior I also took care of my oldest daughter who at the time had a genetic disorder and passed away at 2 1/2 not more then 3 years later our mom was diagnosed with COPD. We grew up close but now they are close and I'm an outsider. They treat me like I am trash and only say nice things to me when holiday's roll around. After our mom passed away they insisted I get a job and do something with my life. When I told them I needed time they pushed me away even further. I resent them for their treatment of our mom and they are starting to treat our dad the same way. He recently had surgery that was very serious and they sat at their jobs texting me for updates while I sat in the hospital with my daughter waiting and pacing to find out what was going on for 2 days straight. Then when he went into a facility for therapy only one showed up for one hour in the month he was there. The other was on vacation. Within 2 weeks of our moms passing one took his kids to Disneyland for a week and said I quote "I needed to give my kids normal" Not taking myself or my daughter into consideration in that statement that our normal was blown to smithereens when mom died because we cared for her day in and day out. Between the two of them they have been on 12 vacations since mom passed and usually together with their wives. One got married and again fought with me for not jumping to make the arrangements to go but this fight included talking about my lack of making money and getting a job. My brothers resent that I'm not a hard core money machine like they are and they belittle me all the time over it. Am I wrong to think in a way I'm better then them because I have love over money? I wish we were close like we were but at the same time I would never want to become like them. I feel like a bad person for how I feel but I also feel they pushed me to this point, the point of I resent them. I tried for a long time after mom passed to reach out to them and make a connection but eventually I got tired of talking to voicemails so I stopped calling and texting, the first month after she passed they were there for me and then it was dead silence. I have grieved alone I don't feel they even really felt her loss they moved on so quick with their lives that they established while she was here. I don't say anything to them about how I feel because I want to keep what peace I have in my life just that peace because my daughter adores her uncles when she sees them on family holidays. I tried to express my feelings once on another site about them and I was belittled by the members so I deleted my account now here I am trying to make sense again of how I feel. I don't care about their vacations but I love how when they have pictures they use the word "family" when our dad or myself are not there. I think that's what hurts the most is they use the word "family" so loosely like they know what that is after what they put our mom, myself and our dad through not being there for us emotionally but quick to rip us a new one. They also recently asked for her ashes saying they wanted to spread them where she wanted to be. Like they have the right to do so without my dad and I there they didn't ask us to be there they wanted to by themselves with their wives. I just don't know if it's possible to let this bitterness go I have tried. Sorry this was so long I just had so much to say.

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I’m sorry your going through this ,,I understand! I have one brother who dosent even care ..he pays for half of moms supplemental insurance because he’s forced to. He mostly lives in Thailand , and is a businessman he is opening businesses there American business ...he dosent give one bit about mom and I ..when my sister first died 4 years ago it showed how little he knew about us he said “ Mom has to step up to the plate now “ I said what are you talking about Mom has Alzehemiers and dementia and has severe arthritis among other health problems..what do you expect her to do ? I was beyond mad at him ,,,so this month I had to beg for half of moms supplement for her Medicare .....I know after Mom and dad passes away I’ll never hear from him again ,,he has a home in California but he said he’s retiring in Thailand where his wife’s family is from ,,,so I just move on and contact him when I have to ..I will be completely alone when Mom and dad dies , I won’t even have an emergency contact ,,,..I’m tired of his liable attitude and I work full time as a RN and try my best to do all I can for Mom and dad ( he dosent live with us but has colon cancer ) ..if those mean dumb azzzzz brothers were mine I’d cut them off ..I’d never text them again ...I’d keep busy and never think of them again ,,,you are doing your best and they are no help ...what good is it to,fight with those losers ....not worth it ..I promise you ..move on without them
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there's a guy online named jerry wise. he talks about the family systems theory. i've found a lot of solace in listening to him. you might want to check him out. good luck.
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I wanted to update, Thank you everyone for reading and the advice it really helped me get through the holiday's I did stand up for myself come the Holiday's when they assumed I would just jump at their beck and call for what worked for them. I told them if they didn't take me into consideration making plans they could shove it. I am starting to get a back bone. I do have to care for my dad through another surgery this coming February but that is because he doesn't want to tell his own sons he is having it due to their lack of interest and help. His car broke down on my birthday he called them for help and neither came to help I was getting my hair cut and had to drop everything to go get him. Then he called them to get advice on a place to go to get the fuel pump fixed and still no help till a week after then they had people and names and numbers. As far as the ashes I did NOT give them any I kept the house locked up tight and wouldn't let the one in when he came over.
I've also given up the idea that we can ever be friends like they are to each other and I finally came to grips with it. I'm okay knowing that they are just my brothers who I see on Holiday's I don't need the stress and anxiety it used to cause me thanks to the help here. I will look into help when my dad goes through this hip surgery. Thank you all !!!!!
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This is a month old thread but I have to ask...you didn’t give your brothers your mom’s ashes did you? To me that was the final slap in the face. Which by the way your brothers both need a slap in the face and a kick in the @$$.

But let me guess, the brothers went to university and got business degrees and life is about money for them. I can speculate that they donated money toward care for your mom. Well in that sort of person’s mind they did their part. YOU ARE THEIR HIRED HELP. It sounds like they’re ashamed of where they come from too.

You don’t have to reach out to these bots, there’s just a wallet where their heart used to be.

I have a relative just like that.
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Trying,

What a shame you’re dealing with all of this! As so many others have said, my heart goes out to you. I don’t have anything earth shattering to add but do want to encourage you to heed the great suggestions given. And you did get a lot of great ones. (They’ve helped me because I’m at the same place with my only sister and the bitterness I feel is obsessive and overwhelming! And extremely toxic to my well being.) Please give serious thought to ending the bullying. I know it’s going to be hard. But you’ll be surprised how quickly it’ll stop once you stop tolerating it. Yes, your brothers won’t like it and yes, they’ll probably get all puffed up and nasty but I can almost guarantee it’ll stop. Give yourself more credit...just look how much you’ve dealt with already and are still dealing with!!! You’re tough! You DO have the strength and power to end the bullying. You do!

As far as moving on or past it, oh boy that’s a tough one. I still haven’t and don’t know how to. It seems people with deep empathy and compassion for others just have a hard time understanding why others don’t. There are only two things that can work for me, temporarily, and those are prayer and reading a good book. I’m sure I will end up seeking therapy but Jeeze! That just feels like one more huge responsibility I’ll have to take on even though a positive outcome would be in sight. Hopefully.

I do encourage you to keep reading the different posts here. All of us do care because so many of us are in the same boat. And reading the same suggestions over and over about moving on or past it is starting to sink in a little for me, I think/hope. And maybe it will for you too.

Good luck. Be strong and know that we’re here for you!
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Trying: My heart goes out ti you, the one who been doing everything for so long. This is not an uncommon situation. Usually the care falls on one person. If I were you, I would not let them speak to me in an acrimonious tone.
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You can continue as you are doing.
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You can contact your Brothers and say that since they thought you did such a poor job caring for your Mom that you will let them care for your Dad. Let them make the decisions, let them do the care giving. They can make arrangements to hire caregivers. They can take Dad to the doctor appointments. Make it known now that you will assume no responsibilities. You can visit Dad and if something needs to be done and you are there, like fix lunch, do it but do no more than that.

By the way if your Dad is a Veteran he may qualify for benefits through the VA that my help.
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If you are a Christian, I urge you to look up Rivertown.sermon.net and listen to the sermon of 12/3/17. It is about preparing for Christmas with less-than-desirable family members; but it does reach further than just family Christmas issues.
I think it will help relieve your bitterness. It has been a powerful message to me.

Many others have offered good practical suggestions for you; but if it's a mind & emotion thing you want to relieve, this could be a great help, whether you want to maintain contact with your brothers or not.

Wishing you all a blessed and peaceful season!
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Dear Trying,
I am so sorry to hear about everything that you went through while caring for your mom and how your bullying brothers treated you and your mom. It is so difficult when siblings won't work together to care for their parents even more so when siblings bully each other at the hospital or nursing home.

If I understand correctly, your dad is still alive and will soon need someone to care for him. Learn from your experiences with your mom. If your Dad is not impaired mentally, maybe ask him to assign you as Durable POA and POA-Health Care. Start to make "What if Plans"--plan what you might do if and when your dad needs care. Look into local elder care and home care resources NOW to see what future options might be available for your dad instead you taking care of your dad 24/7. {I see no need to involve your brothers in this since they will just criticize everything you do or suggest.}

Is your dad your only source of income? If yes, then you may need to start looking for a part-time job to pay some of your expenses and put your paycheck money in a separate checking account from the account that you are currently using to pay your dad and your living expenses. Keep a record of how you spent your dad's money for his and your living expenses.

I also suggest that you see a therapist who has experience in elder care and dealing with the families with elderly parents to assist you in coping with the toxic environment that you and your daughter are in. There are various agencies that have sliding fee scale.

Many helpful suggestions have been made regarding how to stand up to your brothers and how to take care of yourself. Please remember that we care about you and your daughter.
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What bullies they are! I am outraged for you. That said, you can't change them; you can only change how you react to them. I had the same situation with my brother and also a married brother-in-law & his wife. Once I gave myself "permission" to let them go & not be obligated to put up with their bullying ways, I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Finally, FINALLY, I realized they were toxic & I had every right to remove them from my life if all they brought into it was negativity and stress. Interestingly enough, I now have a good relationship with my brother. BIL & his wife? Not at all and I don’t care either. When pressured by my in-laws to "let bygones be bygones" I tell them flat out to back off - that ship has sailed - and to let it be or it will ruin our relationship with them.

IF you got sucked into caring for your dad because they aren’t, I hope you find the strength to back off little by little. This forum and also an in-person caregivers support group, if you can find one, will help you. It did for me. It helped me learn that it’s OK to know my boundaries & set them, that I don’t need to fill in all the care gaps if no one else is doing it, and most importantly that I am entitled to a life as well.

Good luck! We’re here for you. ((hugs))
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I'm also amazed by the lack of empathy by family members.. the ones who I thought would always care. My siblings have backed away emotionally from my parents and me so I'm sure they do not feel grief and sadness that I feel.. or concern over my welfare.

Do they change when really tough times come up? ... Or was their love/caring conditional and not what I always thought it was.... was all an illusion? I remember them as being caring... but pretty much across the board I notice relatives backing away and only offering shallow type support now.. if that.

I have that debate in my head quite a bit. This thread reminds me I am not the only one experiencing this phenomenon.

Much respect for you Trying and all the others going through this.
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Dear Trying,
It always amazes me how family members that we were always close with change into evil monsters.
That is the only way I can describe the selfishness, greed, meanness, betrayal, grasp for power and control and the abusive ugliness of family members when a parent or loved one needs constant care.
I'm going through that ugliness right now with my brother also.
My heart goes out to you and I understand your pain.
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TMB, I remember when you first began posting here, and remember you as being a very caring, concerned and responsible person, as you still are.

As others are, I too am disturbed to learn how this journey has been so traumatic and challenging because of your brothers.

You've been given good advice about standing up to them and segueing them out of your lives. I just have a few observations to offer.

1. JoAnn used exactly the word I had thought of as I read through your post: Bullies. I can't help wondering if they bullied you as the 3 of you were growing up.

2. I would plan to back off on interaction by your daughter with her uncles, as to me the uncles are NOT good role models, family or not. I wouldn't want any child to grow up witnessing their abusive behavior and criticism of their mother, and become acclimated to that behavior to the point that she accepts it as normal.

You don't want your daughter to find herself in a position of men treating her as your brothers treat you. And some behavior is learned.

3. I do think that they've beem enabled at some time in their life, and the fact that they have absolutely no sense of propriety and criticize you in the hospital tells me that they lack a lot of good values...common sense, respect, and especially for a sibling, as well as just being plain irresponsible and obnoxious.

Are they in investment banking by any chance? Stockbrokers?

4. They aren't going to change. Begin eliminating them from your life, and after your father's gone, gradually segue away from any interaction at all. Why? Because they're not providing anything positive to you or your daughter.

I shudder to think that a daughter would grow up admiring such boorish and cruel behavior.

I can't really make any good suggestions on alternative male role models, but if your daughter is interested in sports, that might be an option if the coaches are males, and good stable ones.

5. Are you now caring for your father? I think I would take a stand now, although you don't want your father to be in the middle or be the brunt of their irresponsibility.

6. And stop texting them; tell them if they want an update they can call, that you're too busy to keep pacifying them while they refuse to accept any obligation at all for parental support. I know it takes courage and strength to talk to them like that, but perhaps you can text it to them, then don't respond and don't take their calls so you can prevent them from lashing out at you.

7. I would also tell them that it's impossible to provide decent care when they're so critical, control the financial issues, etc. (and list all the reasons). You might even tell them that it's time for them to step up to the plate and care for your father, although that probably would cause an eruption to rival Mt. St. Helen's.

8. You don't mention it but I have a suspicion that they're tight with the "purse strings" and that you aren't being compensated for your expenditures, nor are they forthcoming with advances that you needed to care for your mother, or would need for your father.

9. This can be your "line in the sand." You might even want to consult an attorney if you can afford it and have him/her draw up a contract that you can present to the brothers addressing remuneration if you do decide to care for you father, or if they refuse.

They aren't going to like being challenged, but it's time they learned their behavior has been inexcusable.

Still, as others have written, you have to stand up for yourself or this abuse will continue.

10. And as to your initial question, I don't think the bitterness in this situation will go away, unless you find through therapy (and I'm not saying that this will solve anything but it's worth consideration) that their personalities are deficient and they've always found a target for their bullying.
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If it were me I'd not want any more to do with the brothers--I'd cut off their emails, texts and phone calls and let only the kindest people into my life from now on. They don't sound like very nice people, they took advantage of you and shirked their parents. What jerks.
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Dear Trying,
I sympathize with you. I am sorry for the way your brothers are treating you and your Mom and Dad also. From your post they are very self centered and thinking only of themselves.

You can do nothing to change them and the longer you dwell on what they are or are not doing the more your bitterness will build. It will do nothing to alleviate the situation, only continue to hurt you. I know it will be hard but try laying these things aside and go on as you have been doing. Your rewards will be great, maybe not in this world but in the next. The Lord will bless you for your service.
As for the way your brothers treat you, you do not have to put up with it. If on the phone hang it up. If face to face walk away and don't look back.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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So sorry to hear of your family troubles. Do you think your brothers might resent you because you don’t have a job? They might be wondering where you are getting your money and maybe feel you are taking advantage of dad and mom when she was alive despite your caregiving.  Just a thought as to why they are so angry with you. Prayers for all of you during this trying time. 
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You need to get mad. These brothers have no idea what goes into caregiving. They have no idea that holding down a full-time job and caring for someone is overwhelming. They probably have that mindset that the daughter is to take care of parents. Is your Dad well? May be you should tell brothers that u took care of Mom so they need to care for Dad since you don't feel comfortable doing for a man and...(being sarcastic) You did such a bad job with Mom. Look into maybe getting a therapist. You can find some that work on scale. You need to stand up to these bullies.
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My heart and soul aches with you and we are more than glad to be your online family. We cannot choose our birth parents or the families we are born into but we can chose how we protect ourselves from toxic people. I'm so sorry you're dealing with difficult personalities. It's sadly all too common especially when there is an aging parent. Focus on your healing and living on with your daughter. As for your brothers you may want to distance from them. Little to no contact is best. Look up videos on narcissm and how you can make healthy boundaries. Career or money driven people usually have some sort of personality disorder. You seem to be very empathetic which makes up for most of the caregivers in families. The most one with the highest emotional IQ are the ones trying to earn love and respect that won't be given freely by cluster b. They have nothing but selfish intentions. I am sorry you're so troubled by this but letting you know now you're not alone when dealing with difficult family members. Much love to you❤ hugss
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Hi TMB,
It's so hard to "forgive and forget" when we feel like we've been wronged. Sometimes we just have to forget about it and not bother with the forgiveness, especially if the pain is recent. It helps not to ruminate about what happened because the pain keeps coming to the surface.
It's rough when our feelings aren't acknowledged, even more so when they're hurt and it seems intentional.

I think the hardest thing for me, in these types of situations, is continuing the relationship. It's normal to want to back away (survival). Do you speak up and defend yourself?

From the explanation you gave of your brothers, they seem very self centered. There is nothing you can do about that. But you can change the way YOU interact with them. Tell them how you feel when they talk down to you. Don't put up with them yelling at you. If you're face to face say, "Please don't talk to me that way." If they don't stop, walk out of the room. If you're on the phone, say the same thing. If they don't stop say, "I'm hanging up now." The ball is in your court. YOU can control how you react to them, which, in a way, controls them.
It's hard to change your way of responding and it may take several tries of rejecting their bad behavior to get your responses right.

Everyone deserves respect. If they won't give it, even after you change your response, I'd suggest that you limit contact with them. (That's what they seem to want anyway.) You know that you helped your mom and they know it too. You freed them up so they could live their lives while you toiled away. Their aggression to you is probably because they feel guilty for not having done their part. They know they didn't do enough, so, to make themselves feel better, they berate you. Just don't put up with it anymore. "Family" isn't all that it's cracked up to be.
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I am so sorry you are going through that Trying..but unfortunately I understand. Anyone who has to call 911 on a regular basis and go through the extreme stress of continually in the ER with your LO deserves a medal. Those situations for me have been harrowing to say the least. I know each of those emergencies takes a toll on you.. it did and still does for me.

No one in my family gets it.. no way would they even begin to know. You deserve (and all of us) deserve love and understanding for what we have been through. I'm so sorry life is unfair.

You need to move on though because they won't change and the anger and resentment is only hurting you.. they are busy enjoying their lives... I am living something very similar.

((hugs))
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Trying--
I am so sorry for the family issues you have to deal with. You cannot force people to feel what you feel--they are acting in their own best interests and leaving you out, which is rotten, but it's evidently the way it is. You cannot change anyone else.
Focus on your life. Are you now 24/7 caring for Dad? Do you want to? Or do you want to live alone with your daughter and have a "normal" life? Only you can answer these questions.

I'm really sorry your brothers seem to be thoughtless jerks. But, you recognize that they are and are not likely to change. Move on with your life and let go of the relationship with them, if possible. I know it seems cold, but I had to "divorce" one of my brothers many years ago, as he was so toxic.

Then vacations, etc., are just signs that yes, they love family, as long as it is their "own" family. I have no idea why they've cut you out. I have found, in my life, that my hubby is VERY distant from his mother and lets his sister handle ALL of the issues with her. I think it's awful, but I cannot MAKE him care about her.

What you are going through is very common, sadly, and I am sorry you have to suffer.

Try to make a life for yourself w/o them in it at all. See how some silence from your end feels for a few weeks. Not angry silence, just self-preserving silence. And good luck with this.
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Hi, Trying. I feel so bad for you. You have spent your whole life
, more or less, trying to do the right thing by your brothers. Instead of being grateful, they are mean and hateful to you. It’s been said before on this site, but you can only be used if you let yourself be. Since you don’t have POA, you can’t put a caregiving plan of action into effect, but you CAN tell your brothers that you need help and they need to find some caregivers for your dad. If you live with Dad, you need to find someway to get your own place, even a studio apartment, and move out. When you are no longer dependent on these people, they won’t be able to use you. Visit Dad, help out if needed, but stop being the unappreciated go-to.

I know how you feel. My husband’s family turned their backs on him, too. He is bedridden and not well. No one from the family ever calls him and the last time I saw them, they didn’t even ask how he was. My heart hurts for him because they were always close.

Best of luck to you. I hope you can find a life independent of Dad and his sons.
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