My mom, who has lived with me for six months, entered hospice very suddenly two weeks ago after years of weight loss, stasis ulcers, and more recently auto-immune blood problems and repeat blood transfusions. She was diagnosed as having colon cancer even though her tumors were recently biopsied and labeled benign because she is not a surgery candidate and the doctors said that her tumors likely are malignant or will become so. Her decline has been swift. She spent a weekend in the in-patient hospice facility and we were both thrown by how out of it she was on the increased pain medication. She wasn’t eating or drinking or using the bathroom, and she was having dreams and visions. I thought she was ready to pass, but then with slightly reduced pain medication, she rebounded and was cognizant, eating, even occasionally saying she was comfortable. Now, a week later, she was in excruciating pain that oxycodone and morphine at home could not control, and she has been re-admitted to the in-patient unit temporarily. I feel so jerked around by the experience. Caring for her at home since she entered hospice is a huge challenge because she can barely get up and is always in massive pain, but she won’t go to the bathroom in a pull-up, so I’ve been helping her to the bedside commode. But when she is in-patient, she is simply knocked out by the potency of the medication. I guess my question is: is this what hospice is? Should I expect her to just spend her remaining time completely passed out? And if you have experienced this, did you have any indication that the end was near? Today, I have prayed several times that she could simply go and be relieved of the pain, but even still, I wonder if it’s just a pain episode and she will be back home again soon (the in-patient facility is very quick to release). I’d love to hear other experiences. I know I can only take one day at a time, but I am a planner, and this experience is making me feel insane.