My Mom went into a hospice facility yesterday, under Active Care, for congestive heart failure and dementia. I had called her doc the day before to let him know of her current health challenges and me feeling like I'm going to collapse taking care of her. (She has lived with my husband and me for 13 years. She developed the dementia with hallucinations a year ago.)
She is now begging me to get her out of there. I know I no longer have the energy and stamina to wait on her all day and not sleep when the hallucinations start at night.
Am I wrong to reconsider and bring her back home again and ask the memory doc to sedate her enough to be more manageable. It's the guilt setting back in because she doesn't like the food, the bed is hard, etc. I am finding it difficult to leave her in hospice while I try to get healthy and well again. What's better for her, being a zombie on meds and coming back to me or torturing her with an environment that is making her so unhappy?
I do feel I need to have a healthy life again but I am struggling with making it at her expense. She is 92 1/2. I am 64.