I am searching for some relief from the pain that I am feeling while caring for my emotionally neglectful elderly parents. I have lived with the neglect of two very dysfunctional parents. I am a highly sensitive person (HSP) and yes, there is such a thing. It is biological! And to top it off, I have been emotionally neglected for my whole 57 years. Somehow, I am a really nice person who cares an awful lot about doing the right thing for people and I find myself living along with my husband, with my mom and dad.
The past year and a half have been a living hell and I am trying to climb out of the hole that I got us in to. I am getting therapy and am searching for those words of wisdom that will resonate with the pain and the pity that I feel at the same time for these two people who I have remained diligent to, yet deserve nothing from me. I went into this situation thinking that I would help make their last few years peaceful, but they started the abuse right up again. Stupidly, I never saw it coming. I have learned so much since then. But now I am desperately struggling with awful resentment that leaves me unable to look them in the eye. I feel such deep pity for their sorry lives and I do what I have to, but feel blank.
I am a very loving person in the rest of my life and have raised a wonderful family, so this is such a horrible burden. Any help? Any insight? Thanks so much.