I have been the primary caregiver for my mother for six years now. She has cancer, congestive heart failure, Ogilvie syndrome, UTI, is unable to get out of bed , has dementia , possibly Parkinson’s? Anyway, I feel as though I have passed some point of no return with personal hopelessness. My sister that could help doesn’t, my brothers are dead, my other sister has MS . I have literally spent the last 1,000 days and more alone in the country... no friends, no single women or very few. I’m very lonely and depressed and I cannot think of a way to put my life back together. It feels like she will outlive me . I don’t know what to do . I’m not even in her will and my son that is will do nothing to help . I’m 55 and I’m not financially secure enough to retire or to do anything. Like I said I am lost and I need advice . I stay extremely depressed and always alone...always. This is much harder than being a single father was. The sun is going down and I’m so very lonely every day?? I don’t know what to do. She was abusive when I was a kid and I left home when I was very young . I don’t understand if God put this on me or if I put this on myself by trying to save my sons inheritance. I’m fairly hopeless and can’t remember what it is like to be happy or to be social. I hate where I have to live to take care of her . It’s complicated. Just about every day I feel as though I cannot make it another day doing this. What do I do? Life is so damn short.