The past month has been super crazy. I have been wanting a break, from mom's health issues, let alone her dementia, but this is not what I meant. I can accept she is gone and in a better place at peace, but now what?
My mom passed away at about 11:45 pm on Wednesday evening. Thursday was spent taking care of her burial arrangements (which luckily she had already did and paid for, so it was more paperwork they anything). Today husband went back to work and brother flew home to Maryland. He will be back on the 19th for the 20th interment.
I spent the day home, yes there where many phones and text messages. Kept self busy with a month's worth of undone housework. But really now what? I stopped my life for the last year and a half to care for her. I am broke, have lost customers, behind on some bills, but I don't know how to just get back to living.
I know it is too soon, just a few days. I am just not sure where to start, plus I think I am in shock of how quickly this all played out.
Be gentle with yourself. Don't expect overnight miracles. Healing takes time.
You did your absolute best to take care of your mother. Now it is time to take care of you.
I'm so sorry about the loss of your Mother.You have been through a lot caring for her,I know.Give yourself a break and just go with how you feel for now.It takes awhile for the brain to "gel" all that's happened.Wishing you peace in your days ahead.{{{hugs}},Lu