I have been a caregiver to mom for 8 years and her end of life is soon approaching (within weeks to days) and it is taking everything I've got not to loose it completely. Mom is 91, blind, nearly deaf, and bed ridden, but completely cognitive and does not want me to leave her side. My husband has been working 7/12's (7 days a week, 12 hours a day) for over a month and still has a month and a half left on this schedule. And he's on graveyard shift at that! We are both exhausted and only see each other 15-20 minutes every morning and evening, so I understand why he is feeling neglected. I am caught between a difficult schedule and guilt from leaving mom alone, even if for only a few minutes. On the rare occasion that I do sneak away, my mind is not in the moment and all I want to do is rush back to her side. Mom and I have always had a good relationship and I consider her to be one of my best friends. I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something were to happen when I'm not there. We have a monitor in her room and my MIL provides assistance on weekdays but I still can't seem to tear myself away when she is this close to the end. It has consumed me and I am literally being torn in two.