My mother, who had ovarian cancer, a broken sacrum, and mild dementia lived with my husband and me for 18 months. I was her primary caregiver during this time, even when she went into hospice care. She passed away on February 9, 2019, and every day since then, I have been racked with guilt over certain feelings I had while she was living with us. I must preface this with the fact that while my siblings and I were growing up and even after we married and had children of our own, Mom was the most wonderful, caring mother. She gave of herself selflessly and did everything she could for all of us. While she was living in our home, I was with her just about 24 hours a day. I did get breaks here and there to go to the store, etc. There were many times, though, that I just couldn't stand to hear her walker rolling across the floor, her little sayings like "jiminy Moses," and her just standing there watching what we were doing. She would want to leave on the porch lights during the day and I would turn them off and tell her we didn't need them on during the day. I resented her coming out when my friends came to visit me and joining in our conversation. I could give many other examples, but the bottom line is how could I have had these thoughts about my wonderful mother? Why didn't I just let her have the porch light on since it really was no big deal? Why did I have to correct her on many so trivial matters? I have not had a moments peace since her death. I miss her terribly, and I am so sorry for my thoughts about her and corrections I would voice to her. Have any other caregivers felt this way toward the parent they are caring for? Are these thoughts normal? I have cried every day over this and just can't seem to get past it.