I am also relieved to have my life back. I hadn't seen my friends in months or been able to make any plans because Dad always needed something and refused outside help. My emotional and physical health were suffering. But I feel guilty at being relieved right now. Yes, I miss him of course, but I know he is back with my mom. I have been just relaxing for the past few days and catching up on sleep and me time, something I hadn't done in months. I now understand why people have to go to nursing homes, and have no idea how someone can be a sole caregiver for an elderly parent for years.