She gets to me. I Can't seem to feel unemotional. She said im always going out. She is concerned about needing me in an emergency. My brother lives with her. But he is no good in emergencies mom says. He has called 911. And gone with her to hospital before. He just doesn't alk to the nurses or help mom in the hospital. Like I will do. I live an hour and a half away. But I do have the POA if needed for medical treatment if she is unconscious and the do not resuscitate order if necessary.
Here is what Im doing the next few days. Go out in morning tomorrow be back home early afternoon. Friday's out early morning be back home about 2:00pm in the afternoon. Saturday gone most of day but he home in evening. Mom said that sounds like Im going to be out all the time. That she could call me and call me all day and not get me. She is 89 years old. I can't not live a life because she might need me. I gave her my cell phone number. She never asked for it before. It's a little hard to understand people on the cell phone. So I don't use it. Now I'm going to turn it on everyday.
But that's just an example of how she gets to me. How do I think of her more like a client instead of a mother?
I'm emotionally worn out right now. Constantly going through emotional things with mom.