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WOW! I would swear to God that I typed this letter. I just turned 43 in July & I'm in the same sinking boat, or as I call it, purgatory! My mom will be 81 in November & my dad passed in Oct. of 2000. I am the youngest of 5 & my mom has been bed ridden for about 6 years now. Eveyone is married w/ kids except me but I now have a boyfriend. To be honest, I don't even know how because I keep telling him to run every time I tell him about what my mom is saying/doing to me. I live w/ her as well & am a caregiver, yard cleaner, plumber, a maid, a nurse, cable person, a verbal/emotionally abusive punching bag, I take her to her cancer treatments, I'm a chef & much more. She also has eye issue's...macular degeneration, glacoma, a detatched retna, optick nerve damage, heart problems, asthma, she takes about 25 pills a day. I have to pick up urine soaked diapers off the floor & clean up the mess. If I make a meal, I don't know how to cook. She tell me to go pick her up dinner & it's my "duty". She tells me on my birthday that I should've been aborted. She, like your mom, plays me against my siblings by talking about me to them & about them to me. If I go ANYWHERE, evento work, I feel guilty, let alone somewhere to have fun. She says I'm a loser, no one wants me, have you looked in the mirror lately? She also brings her Roman Catholic religion into our fights & acts like she's so "holy" as she rec'vs communion & says her rosary, all the while telling me how horrible I am & that she hopes my cats get sick & die! She later will act like NOTHING HAPPENED & I'm the crazy one. She says how everyone should remain a virgin until married then said to me "oh good, now that you have a boyfriend maybe you can finally start having sex". She doesn't even know whether I had sex a long time ago or not, she just says sick things like that. She read all of my diarys, hacked into my computer, then denied all of this. She hid CAT FOOD & my cell phone...She then will tell my aunts/cousins that I'm starving her. She recently started calling my neighbors over to the house if I don't answer her or do what she wants, so they must think I'm nuts. She threatens to call her lawyer every other day & change the will from me being executor to not being in it at all. She said she's calling the cops on me. She blamed me for when she falls on the floor. TRUST ME, we're not the crazy one's. I even went to a hospital on my own for depression back in 2010. I wasn't home a week before she "started" on me again & said, "you need to go back to the psyc. ward, you're lucky I took you home. They should've kept you there". I told her several times she's mentally ill & that she needs help. She refused any anitidepressants & threw them on the floor. She wrote ON THE WALLS IN OUR HOUSE IN MARKER, things that my father said to her that she found hurtful & denies it eventhough I can still read it. She threatens to call my place of work & tell them I'm dating someone from there. She tells me to get out of the house, that she'll just take "all her pills" & die...playing the "guilt" card. We're the sane & the strong one's. I just keep telling myself, she's sick & that's how I can forgive but I don't have to forget. By not forgiving, you hurt yourself. I SHOULD LEAVE HER but I don't know how because of the guilt.
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Visit your local volunteer center. They screen young people and do police checks also before sending them out. Many are students seeking experience and references in their chosen field 9 social work.
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