How do I get over the grief of watching my mom die while taking care of her?

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These are all very sad stories indeed. Each very touching in their own way. W
It is very hard, and my heart goes out to you. Although it was decades ago, I lost my mother after a long, slow battle with cancer, and my father after a long struggle following a stroke. I too felt like an orphan.
But to the excellent advice here, may I add some perspective that comes from time? It will get better. Not today, nor tomorrow, but eventually. My best advice is not to isolate yourself, even if you feel too bad to be in company. Accept help from hospice and others, gratefully. Surround yourself with family and friends who love you. And realize that we are all mortal, and many people understand and have been through what you are going through, even if some express themselves awkwardly. Involve yourself as much as possible with the world outside your door, and give as much of yourself as you can to everyone, not just your mother. Accept whatever love and support comes your way. Years from now, when the grief has subsided, you will honor her memory by living joyfully and fully. It is what she wants for you.
Sandraann,
Prolonged grieving, the type of grieving that so many of us caregivers must endure, is very different from the standard grieving process that most people must face at the loss of a loved one.
Because the usual process of grieving can be interrupted by the length of time we must watch our parents die, and the various stages of grief are not able to proceed in the usual steps and tend to get all mixed up, we can suffer from some trauma that the standard process would help us to avoid.
I agree that you should speak to the Hospice folks and for some help for yourself to cope with this difficult time AND for when you must face the true grieving after her passing.
Stay strong.
Praying to God to accept what is happening helps me. We cannot change the progression of disease and a lot of stress goes away when we accept things as they are. Guilt and fear are great destroyers. Just know that you have done all that you could do and that you are there to comfort your mom. It is in God's hands and you should take your troubles and hand them over to him...I wish you peace and comfort and brighter days ahead.
As I read your question my heart went out to you. Last November 11, my father
passed and that was the hardest experience I have ever faced. He had lived
in my home for 14 years after my monther passed. He was active and gardened
and the last 4 years were so difficult, I stopped working and stayed with him with
some outside help. I was not prepared for the emotional loss at the end.
But I wanted to share with you that I immediately started teaching art classes
at the local Art Center ( I am a former art teacher) I found by getting out and
continuning in something that I loved helped with the emotional pain. I also
stated taking Yoga, and have focused on taking care of me....this 9 months
after and I have days of tears and emotional "fall-out" I really try to remember
the Great times we had not the last few months....although at first I had dreams
that disturbed my sleep. I am better now and miss him everyday but I am doing
things that I have always wanted even if I don't want to. When I teach I realize I
cannot focus on anyone except the students and find joy in their Joy of learning.
Please Honor YOURSELF if you want to cry or sit or walk ....Do what you need
and Know if you did not LOVE so deeply you would not hurt so deeply...and for
that I would not trade for anything....I was there because I loved and gave what
I had until the end...and I have peace in that. May you find blessings in this day.
My dad has been bedridden for so long and my husband and I just moved in with my mother to help with him because she is so frail and tired from years of caring for him, I know that when the time comes for him to go, its going to hurt so bad and I will miss him, but I also know that lying in bed all the time is not living, and the pain he bares has to be horrible, his mind has been right for so long that I think he is getting dementia right now and its almost a blessing because he doesn't complain of pain anymore, its heartbreaking for him to be in so much pain and I'm not able to make him comfortable, and he would moan for hours even on medication....we will never be ready for our loved ones to go, but them being relieved of the pain and suffering is the true blessing, thats what I feel, i will certainly cry, and miss him terribly but use the time to let them know u love them and its ok to go home, we have no control over this, we have to learn that we have to think of them and how they feel and their pain and not ours...GOD will get us al thru it and all of us on this site can comfort each other....love u and GOD bless you and ur family....
As other have said take advantage of hospice services. They are wonderful and can help you deal with your feelings. I have been there, it is one of the hardest things you'll ever face. Take care of yourself and don't feel guilty for taking time for yourself.
Sand - I am going through the same thing !!! Hospice has been involved for a couple months now but just about 3 days ago my mom decided or can't eat or drink. Her meds have to be liquid (as you know prob) with a dropper. When we had to open the "comfort kit' and just couldn't handle it!!! Giving her morphine for the first time signaled I'm 'really' losing her - and just broke. I'm alone in caring for her outside of hospice here and there, and family every other week for a day.....so this transition is me leaning on my higher power for guidance and tuning into her needs before passing. Sometimes I don't even want to walk into her room for fear she passed......it's scary, confusing and breaking my heart. But 'we' will survive and better for it. You will be in my thoughts - stay soft and loving.
All of the people who have commented on this are great folks with good insight and ideas for you. I can only offer that each of us needs to find our own path through this process. I am currently caring for my Father who is dealing with Dementia and just lost his license. I lost my wife to cancer after 32 years of marriage and it was a 3.5 year battle ending in hospice helping us. There are many resources that you can and should explore to help you get through this and the Hospice folks should be able to give you a few pointers and ideas. This web site is also very helpful and there are lots of people that want to help each other so please use this as a resource and open up and vent as much as you need to.
I am not sure if u are an only or if u r the one doing the caring with hospice and others may be in denial....at any case, it is not easy. My mom passed two years ago, My dad passed 5 months ago tonight. I am an only. I fill orphaned, as well, we all do whether we have an abundance of siblings or just us. We all carry the grief differently. It is very hard. My dad went in for a colonscopy and never came out. his heart could not take it. He was in for 4 weeks, the first two, he was himself, writing checks, etc., we even ate all his favor foods. the day of the colonsyp. they found cancer, but the cancer did not do him in, 88 and heart did. He knew he was dying before he went down as he told me God will take real good care of you baby......he had premonition. It is hard to allow them to go....when it is time....I was so afraid, and alone, even with family...when they said it was near time, I went in by myself and went over our lives together from him and mom meeting, marrying, having me, our lives, etc., I told him I could not help him, and he missed mom ever so much....that when it was time and God wanted him I had to give him up to God, and yes, I cried. It was the toughest thing I did besides give up my mom from a stroke, two years before.....Just know that if your are keeping your mom's wishes alive and on the front burner, and doing all u can, in the end, when u look back, the regrets will be so few. GOD BLESS YOU.

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