This might seem selfish but I feel robbed by COVID. Robbed of the precious time with my mother whom has vascular dementia. During the COVID shutdowns of long-term care facilities in Canada I was unable to visit my mother which I was doing regularly through the week. I understood the need to close the homes because COVID was tearing through homes and a lot of seniors were at risk. Wasn't easy on me or many people in the same situation as myself. Even though I was able to talk daily on the phone with her it wasn't the same as being there holding her hand. Over the past year in total on and off I would say the home was shut to all visitors for about 8 months. Because of my regular visitations prior to COVID I was considered an essential worker, and finally allowed to visit. But here's the thing, mom's different now. The disease has stolen more of her during this past year and I feel like I missed so much time with her. Yesterday I had to come to terms with the fact that my mother is entering the last-stage of her dementia. F*ck I wish I had that time back.