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I am new to this, so i thought i would start by venting what I'm going thru for the last 2 years. im 30 years old and my fiancé and i have been together almost 7 years (getting married may 2014). We are both self employed, running a business together and i work primarily from home. My Fiances dad is now 87 years old and has been living with us for a few years. His health was great until about 2 years ago when he was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and afib. From there his health has been rapidly declining, and he is on more meds than ever. This is a guy who still works (although we had to close down his office about 5 months ago so he can work from home as well). I knew that once he was home 24/7 things would change. He is home ALL THE TIME, and we went from having a decent amount of privacy to almost none!! He watches tv all day and its sooo loud you can hear it thru the whole house. He wont wear the headphones and thinks he hears just fine. I dont even work in my office anymore because i cant concentrate. Recently he had laser surgery on his prostate because we found out it was blocking the urine from draining from his bladder. Th surgery didnt work so now he has to "self cath" 4 times a day becuase his bladder "died". The doctor says it is less likely to get an infection this way as opposed to a permanent catheter. I agree, but now there is always piss all over the guest bathroom all the time, and he isn't a really clean person to begin with. I am in there scrubbing almost every day. Feces too becuz he cant seem to get to the toilet quick enough. He gets a urinarytract infection at least once a month which often means a trip to the ER since it always seems to fall on a weekend. I have always taken him to all his doc appts and i lay out his meds every week. I am good at it and very organized. My fiancé has taken the lead in running the business, but i still have a lot of responsibilities with our business on top of caring for his dad. I cant just walk away from work and we cant afford to hire help with our business. At 30 years old i feel like i am meant to do something more than this. I like to work! I like to be independent. We are currently renting a 4 bedroom house, we need a bedroom for his dad, one for his 13 year old daughter which is with us half the time, an office and of course our bedroom. We are getting married in 5 months and want to start a family. I dont even have room for a baby let alone the time. I feel like i am caring for a child right now. I am always waiting for something to go wrong with him because once he gets better something else always happens. For example, he had yet another UTI last month that almost killed him. He went into septic shock and had to be hospitalized for a week. He is constantly having problems self cathing and its obviously causing these frequent infections. Its quite a production for someone to insert a catheter 4 times a day, but an 87 year old man who is frail and looses his balance is a huge challenge. My relationship is definitely suffering, and lately my fiancé and i feel like prisoners in our own home. He craves socialization but WILL NOT take up a hobby or go to a senior center to meet people. So he is always trying to talk our ears off about this or that, but our schedules Are always so hectic, so its tough to just sit there and let him finish. Then when i tell him "sorry i have to be somewhere, can we talk later?" He gets really annoyed and then things just get awkward. He also cant hear anything at all so conversations are extremely difficult. I know i must sound ridiculous all my complaining. I see a lot of people on here that have worse situations than mine, and i feel for all of you. I am grateful i am not in the advanced stages of caregiving yet, but i also feel like i am seeing what is yet to come for us. The way things are going, i just know im gonna try to have a baby or two and something is going to go wrong with my father in law. We cant leave for very long as it is right now. i dont even know what we are going to do with him when we go on our honeymoon!!! Every time we leave now, he burns something on the stove, or cuts himself, or falls. Like i said, im young and so is my fiancé. He just has an older father. I wasn't expecting to have to experience this kind if thing until i was much older. I am super depressed and feel like i am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. I dont even see my friends anymore. Plus now we have to worry about saving money for when the time comes to get a higher level of care for him. We have just started making a life for ourselves!!!. I am so resentful that this will affect the money we need to start a family!!! I am such a terrible person, i wish there was a solution.

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You need to either move your FIL into a facility or get some in-home care for him so you're not doing it all by yourself. There should be some help through Medicare or Medicaid for him, particularly with his catheter needs. Call your local Area Agency on Aging and start to find out what resources are available for your FIL. Your fiance will have to work with his dad to get him to accept the changes, since he (your FIL) seems pretty stubborn about seeing any need for change or the impact he's having on your lives. Good luck and keep us posted.
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No, you are not a selfish person, (((((((hugs)))))) You have already given up too much - your privacy, your friends...You do need to make some changes. It is not fair to you and your husband-to-be to have this responsibility at your age and stage of life. What is your fil's financial state? Can he afford assisted living or a nursing home? If he can't there is always Medicaid. This is too much for you now. There is no way you can bring babies into this situation - even for sanitary reasons. It sounds like your fil is getting to the point where he really needs more care if you can't leave him alone for long without an incident. What is your boyfriend's take on this? Is he stuck on keeping his dad at your home? Medicaid is there for people who can't afford to pay for their care. You could meet with the local Agency on Aging and with Social Services and find out your options. There may be some help available for him at home until you make other arrangements. Certainly you do not have to pay for his care in a facility if he cannot pay it himself. Sounds like you are doing a tremendous job - good for you. You are well organized and capable, Research the other options you have and work on them. Medicaid application, for example takes awhile. If he was a veteran, they are additional resources.

Good luck to you and let us know what you work out,
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No, you are not being selfish. Realistic is the word I would use. I just spent the last 7 1/2 months trying to deal with the guilt of my mother dying after I spent the previous 2 years living with her to the detriment of my health and my family.

Caregiving is not for everyone. Do not feel bad if it isn't for you. He is not YOUR responsibility. He is your fiance's responsibility. If he is not willing to take care of him, then he needs to find an assisted living facility nearby. That may sound harsh, but it is fact. It is hard enough to take care of a person you are close to, darned near impossible to care for someone you with whom you have no connection.

Sending positive energy your way. Good luck!
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In home care or a nursing home are your only options, unless you do find an assisted living facility that allows incontinence. I live in Michigan. I was looking for an assisted living community for a dear older lady I help. One of the stipulations was that she did not have incontinence that she could not take care of. Many elderly use a brief (proper word to use instead of diaper) but are able to take care of any messes made. if your FIL is not able to clean his area up or is unwilling, he probably can't live in assisted living in your area.
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Have you considered assisted living? I cannot see how you can manage the responsibility of a baby in addition to what you are doing now. You and your Fiance have some difficult decisions to consider. I wish you luck!
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You need to talk to an Elder Law attorney. He will need to go into Assisted Living or a NH soon. It's just too hard to take care of someone who is incontinent. You need ti figure out how to apply all of HIS assets to his care, including getting him onto Medicaid, unless you are all super rich.

Practically, how about getting some Depends for his fecal incontinence? I bet he would be less embarrassed if he could just remove the soiled one and put it into a plastic bag, and then no gross poop-decorated bathroom for you to clean. At least to me, urine is a lot less disgusting than poop.

How about putting him into an AL for a week so you two can have a vacation? Try that for your honeymoon. He might discover he likes it!

He or Medicaid should be paying for most of his expenses. You two should only be paying for extras.

Good luck!
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My fiancé does help out when he can. It sucks because my fil is pretty much all there mentally, no dementia yet. Just a little forgetful, you know like "where did i leave my glasses?" Kind of thing. My fiancé and my fil have always been close, and i know my fil's biggest fear is being put in a home. We have definitely talked about in -home care, and both agree we are at the stage where we need to go to the next level with him to prevent something from happening. You all have great advice, im gonna check into veteran benefits because he served in WWII. Luckily he has Medicare and also a secondary insurance, so we never see a bill for all the doctors visits, out-patient procedures, and hospital stays. His RX Care is good too and he pays for all his meds. He does a few side jobs here and there (licensed architect). He can make a couple hundred bucks at a time but only a few times a year. He does not have any money or assets outside of social security benefits so assisted living would be out of our pockets. We do pretty good financially, but being self employed we have a lot of business expenses. He wears depends, but he uses it more for leakage after using the catheter, and it is more sanitary as well. I am going to have my fiancé talk to him about maybe when he goes number 2 it might be better to go in the depends if he cant make it to the bathroom. I think that if he developed dementia, or something extreme happened then my fiancé would have no issues putting him in a home. We both agreed that even though we can take care of him it doesn't mean we can give him the same care he could get from a professional. All of these things are kind of a touchy subject in the house tho because of a recent tragedy we have just endured. About 2 months ago, my Fiances half older brother and my fil's first born son committed suicide. It came out of nowhere and it totally crushed my fil at first. He has gotten over the hump of sadness, he is a very positive guy. But there was always tension between my fiancé and his brother and my fil has always taken his other sons side over the years. The dynamic is tricky for my fiancé as he doesn't want to cause a stir at this point until things calm down, and i completely understand. One thing my fiancé did today was he asked his mom if she could stay at our house during the honeymoon and she is more than happy to do it! She is in her 60's and even though they are divorced they are friends. We were hesitant to ask her because we felt awkward but we over thought that one. One thing off the list!!! I am def going to look into veteran benefits and really do my research on what options are available tho, even if it means someone comes in a few hours a week that is better than nothing. I have learned that in a caregiver situation you have your good days and bad days. I am surprised how much better i feel by just writing all of this down, and being able to hear others stories and advice. For that i am truly grateful!
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Check with your local Area Agency on Aging or just make some phone calls. Not sure if you live in a larger metropolitan area - but SOME assisted living facilities accept Medicaid. You cannot use VA Aid and Attendance AND Medicaid at the same time - it is one or the other - so it just depends on how much SS he receives and how much VA benefit he will receive.

We have been going to take my MIL in to see someone at VA to find out what she could get (max for her is about $1100 a month widow's benefit - but the vet himself would get more. Problem is - you have to go and sit and wait your turn at the VA office - they won't even make appointments and around here - they are only there one day a month or something crazy like that. Needless to say - we have sort of decided to just try for Medicaid when the time comes. Probably this Spring or Summer.

It is too bad older ones don't think of what the burden of their care does to their families - but they can't seem to think past their fear of going to a NH.

As their advocates - we - their family - when we have reached the end of our ropes - must then make certain that we have researched and chosen the best possible home for them and then visit often to make sure they are cared for properly and engaged mentally and physically as much as possible.

Sadly, many today just live too long nowadays - we long outlive our health and without good health - well life is just plain hard. It is not only hard for the older one but extremely hard for their care givers -

I remember reading an article by the Anthropologist Margaret Mead in Look Magazine - when was in my teens (many years ago now) and she said she never feared growing old because the older people she knew were physically active and engaged in life - and INDEPENDENT. Few spent their final days hanging out of a wheel chair wearing a bib in an old folks home.

But now, thanks to modern medicine, we can be propped up almost indefinitely - and as John Mellencamp aptly said "Long after the thrill of livin' is gone."

You two have just begun to live your life. You are far too young to be a part of the 'sandwich generation' and I do not believe we owe lives and happiness to our aging parents. We owe them respect, care, and love. We can give them these things even if they are not living under our roof.

We too started out with my MIL living independently and while she was independent things went smoothly. But the years take their toll - on everyone involved. My health has taken a turn and so has hers. She has what we call 'mini crises' 3-4 times a year - ER visits, hospitalizations, rehabilitation, more and more meds. We want to move her into Assisted Living BEFORE she gets to the point that they will not accept her due to her poor health. So, we put her on the list and she will move as soon as an apartment is available. It is a beautiful facility that accepts Medicaid. She has taken a tour. We know she will adjust and be ok.

So, look into other arrangements for your FIL - he will adjust and will be fine if you two continue to be part of his life.

Just my two cents. The best to you all. Hoping 2014 looks UP for you. :0)
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AMEN Zoolife - your Killer Ants gave me a chuckle - too bad it isn't more funny at your end.................... Hang in there.....................
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Yep oldcodger2 it's good to laugh isn't it, we need more of that here, and if my sharing experience with THE ATTACK OF THE KILLER ANTS makes you smile good! I've also thought of a new TV series "The top 10 most dysfunctional family's in America but I could take the shame LOL! Or perhaps another series called "This Sucks Dynasty" and daily!LOL
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