I feel I'm drowning. To much to handle, what should I do to help ME?? Been dealing with this alcoholism for four years, been caregiving just as long consistently. I need a life. I come home and sit.. watch him get drunk, and play on the computer. For literally 5 hours. My caregiving job is chaotic. I want a nice dinner out, or go bowling anything!!! I'm hanging by a thin thread, I deal with a lot at work and come home to an emotionally unattached person. Don't have a lot of friends either cause of his drinking. I know I'm way off topic... but both go hand and hand with my mood.