She watched them remove the rest of the machinery out last sunday. Idiot me, I had to go take a look. I couldn’t stop crying. I feel like I am grieving a loss. This is the push my mom needed to finally go see her lawyer. Since my brother is still not communicating with either of us. She is sending a certified letter asking him what are his intentions regarding the farming of the land he is renting. Is it wrong to hang on to some hope that someday he will call me. Yet everybody warns me to stay away. I have been really struggling with eating and emotions and blaming myself. I don’t know if there is a question but I needed to process all of this.