Well the nurse gave mom 5 more days...It's agonizing.

Msdaizy....throughout this journey, you have honored your beautiful mother with
such love, compassion, patience, and the most beautiful n profound grace.....that I can feel it through the screen... Your mothers passing to the arms of Jesus, I'm sure, was gentle and filled with love....it will take time for you to adjust to life, without her physical body, but, you know as well as many of us do....our loved ones never, really leave us.....with that known....I pray for you, comfort n eventually...peace....God Bless You .....much love.....Beck

Debra, you have been through it all, now it is final closure. I am sure that this experience has immeasurabley changed you and now is the time to finally let go and grab ahold of the promise of your new life that lies ahead. I pray for you and your mom, there is release and ease in sight, sounds like your mom has found her way back to where she came from and it is really a joyous thing.

May you find the peace and joy that you so richly deserve.

i send u prayers,
its the space she took up that is empty now, that can hurt so much-
she will never be far away from you-
she loves u and so do we-
im sorry
love
k

There's nothing I can do or say to take away your pain, but if there were I'd do it so not a tear remains. I know how much you're hurting and I know that you have cried. I know the emptiness you feel without your Mom by your side. It's hard to lose a parent and it's so hard to understand, when apart of you is taken away with all the times that you had planned. Life can be unfair at times, but this I know is true. When God takes away a soul, the memories stay with you. That's why at night when you're alone and a memory comes to mind, let it through and remember-God's not the hurting kind. He send it back so you will know that your Mom is okay. She's healed now. His strength is back and she's not that far away. You can close your eyes and see her face or if you listen with your ears, you'll still hear her voice within your head so you'll know that she's still near. It's like she's in another room and she's calling out to you. Enjoy the memories God has given. They're there to help you through. God loves you, Friend. Don't ever doubt one day you will unite. Keep looking up! You're not alone. You're always in God's sight.

Loridtabbykat ...that was beautiful. Thank you so much ... Today is better one day away from her being gone. I have been reading inserts of my journal and sharing a little bit of what I experienced with my sister over the phone. She lives a mere 600 miles away. I feel fortunate that I recorded many of mom's escapades because now I can look back at some of the times we had here together. I highly recommend anyone that is a caregiver or even if you are not, keep a journal and use it for good or bad memories , things to be thankful for, or even prayer requests. The journal was my life line during the struggles...and I now have that to share with my siblings. Mom wasn't completely mom with the Dementia but some days she showed herself a little. Like I said today I am strong...ready for what ever comes next. I keep you all in my prayers...God bless you all.

Keeping you in my prayers. God bless.

It took almost a year for me to be able to walk into my dad's room and not start sobbing. Now I go in and say hi, dad and start to fill him in on what's been happening lately. His room was where I felt close to him when he was critically ill in the hospital and so still makes me feel close to him. I miss him so much but also am finally able to know he's where he should be. You will go back and forth for awhile and it's all ok - we all have to experience it for ourselves in our own way in our own time. Let yourself cry, let yourself laugh, but always, always remind yourself that you did what alot are not able to and you did it out of love. Peace be with you, Kuli

The hospital bed and all the other equipment has been taken out of my home. It's seems so weird. I walk into the room and it's a little empty. just as my heart is a little empty inside. Like someone has just punched a hole in it. I can't believe that I am now parentless. When mom lived on her own, I called her twice a day. We talked about nothing! I would give anything to hear her voice just one more time. Today I was strong..now I feel a lump in my throat and my head is starting to pound again. I need to cry..but the tears won't come. It's so hard....the wound is still fresh...time will heal.

My heart is sad with you. After 17 mos I still refer to that end of my house as my mom's bedroom and bathroom. You will get peace from knowing you have no regrets. Hugs to you, MsDaizy.

Mdaizy ...your last post made me think about something, that, I tend to forget, due to frustration, or, at times, impatience, or just pure exhaustion...n that's the phone calls I get from my dad, everyday...between 8-10 times, a day....but then, there are moments, like now, that I know his voice, will one day, fall silent, n I, too, will miss his voice...thanku for bringing me back to center. One day, you will be back, in the loving arms of your mother, while God looks you in the eye n says, "Well done, good n faithful daughter." What a glorious day, that will be....Always praying for you, msdaizy.... Continued strength n peace in the coming days, months, n years.....Many blessings, friend.......Beck

Ms. Daisy - I say to you - you are one heck of a compassionate, loving, daughter and caregiver. Your mother left in peace, and she would be very upset if you grieved her too much. She looks down on you from now on from heaven, and know that she is with angels.

May god send his holy spirit down upon you and protect you. You are an angel among angels on this forum. Thank you for your reflections, prayers and kind words.
Remember - this is a beautiful sadness. Take it day by day. And also you need to be very very kind to your soul and body in the coming days -- it is very fragile and must be nurtured.

Love,

Patty

Thanks everyone..its getting better each day. My head is not heavy nor is my heart. The sun it shining today...beautiful. My sister Donna and I met with the funeral director to get things set. I felt pretty good. Didn't cry and we talked about mom and how wonderful of a mom she was. She will be cremated and come spring she will be place in a niche next to my oldest sister and father at Hillcrest Mausoleum in Wenatchee. I have a majority of my family there so we will have a celebration of her life then. Thats what mom wanted...she didn't want a funeral because funerals are so depressing. I'm so glad she decided not to. I love the idea of spring, sun and family. That's they way everyone feels. Today is a good day. God Bless you all.