I feel like I'm at my wits end.
It will probably sound stupid, but I was carrying in bottled water from the car (weighs about 100lbs) probably, and I see my mom staring at me through the window while I'm struggling to get into the door.
My mom is disabled, but can walk with a walker - she even makes her own breakfast and does stuff around the house. She could walk to the door.
It didn't really bother me that she was watching me through the window instead of trying to get to the door to open it for me, but what really upset me was when I came in. I was huffing and puffing from the strain, and my back even hurts a bit from it.
And she has the nerve to stare at me and say "You didn't lock the car."
So, I say "You could lock it" - which she could. She has a set of keys. She could have locked it to help me out. Then I say "And you could have opened the door for me - but you were just sitting there watching through the window"...
Then she starts saying "YOU just want to argue! You looove arguing with me. You don't respect me!"
I mean seriously? Am I supposed to stay quiet about it? Hold it all inside? I honestly don't know what I'm supposed to do with her. She does this a lot - making ME feel guilty, when I go out of my way to help her all the time. She honestly DOES NOT understand.
On top of all this - I have huge resentments toward her about stuff that happened years ago and I just can't let go of it. And when she talks to me like this I just reach my boiling point.
I just need to vent. Ugh!
My back still is sore a bit from that damn bottled water. And the car is safely locked! I've spoken maybe 20 words to my mom today.