Hey folks, welcome to the new whine/general topic thread. Feel free to use this thread to discuss anything that is on your mind. Caregiving- related stuff, life after a loved one's death, your own emotional wellbeing. Whatever..........anything on your mind.
My interactions consist of grocery store checkout people, Starbucks barristas and that's about that. I find myself talking to myself a lot. Talking to the cats but really talking to myself. :P
As for the whole church thing. I find it very sad that churches are so unwelcoming. Truly sad. Especially when you would think a church would be a place to find solace. I had big plans I was going to find a church to go to while Hubs was away but so far haven't. I still have two weeks but honestly don't like the idea of walking into a church by myself. That whole experience I had with the grief counselling turned me right off. The Pastor was a nervous prude and treated me like I was some Jezebel sent to tempt him. He actually had a panic attack one evening and had to leave. I just don't get it. I really don't.
It is often more lonely when he is home.
Gershun - re that pastor, yikes!!! This is an example where judgement is appropriate. Not calling him names, but evaluating the situation and accepting that he was not good at the job of grief counselling and you needed to stop seeing him. If it (counselor, group etc.) doesn't work for me in the first few sessions, I respect my feelings, stop going and seek something else.
There were only two other people besides him and myself at these sessions. One was a member of his congregation, the other was one of these people who just went on and on about herself and then when we prayed she would throw in "amens" and "thank-you Father" throughout the prayer. To each his/her own but it just annoyed me. Plus I never stated where I was in my own Christian journey to them and he treated me like I was totally ignorant about the Bible. He'd look at me and say things like "just in case you aren't aware" etc. etc. Then he got into this big discussion about how he doesn't counsel women on a one on one basis because of how it might look. I was tempted to remind him of the story in the Bible of how people criticized Jesus cause he let a woman of ill repute wipe his feet with her hair and how Jesus responded to them. My point being Jesus wasn't worried what people thought.
Anyway, it's all water under the bridge now. I stopped going and that was that.
That kind of treatment is experienced as rejection, and it lingers.
It speaks more to the pastor's dysfunction and really has nothing to do with you, imo.
In these days and times, I am reminded of instructions I have heard before,
that is to not check your brain at the door (when entering church). I see that you have already got this!
Our journey and desire for spiritual growth will not end just because the churches end in apostasy.
I pray about it and I know God will lead me eventually to this place so I'll leave it with him and carry on.
what’s on your bucket list?
But there you go...........that's on my bucket list.
I want to get married. Or, at least I think I do, haha. It's still something I think of as "someday" but since I'm mid 40s, I guess I could at least get back to some dating. I've been VERY content this past year to focus on things for me: the relatively new job and totally different career path for now, the new apartment that I've put a bit of work into so I can stay here comfortably for years to come, hopefully...
I haven't been lonely, I'm not lonely. I just want to get married someday so I guess I better go on some dates, then.
I'm planning some fun things for this year coming up. I booked my hotel for a music festival at end of May in Detroit. I'm content and focused on doing fun things for, and mostly by, myself. I just want to snap my fingers and have a comfortable marriage... mostly for companionship reasons... but also I'm a romantic and hoping to find a committed, loving relationship.
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CW, that's annoying, getting a bill for things you don't remember your mom being given, four months after the fact. Hopefully it's not a lot of money. That would make it much easier to simply pay it and move on.
The charge from the pharmacy was very small, most of mom's meds were covered. It was just a surprise... and opening old wounds, I guess.
I'm just saying.
Hub's Mom and Dad's place? As soon as I walk in there I want to walk on out again. You can cut the atmosphere with a knife. Sometimes it's so thick even a machete would be required. I swear.
Where's msmadge these days?
Msmadge, calling msmadge Are you OK❓❓❓