It is now 4:30 am and I have been up since 9 am yesterday (except for a two hour nap yesterday afternoon). It has been quite awhile since I last posted. Well mainly need to vent but will welcome any advice. Please bear with me. I feel like running down the street screaming. Ugh. First I have not posted much as I have been dealing with my health issues and my honey's. As well as the fact we are about to have our electric and water cut off....ugh.
Well anyone who read my prior posts knows what the situation with my honey was from Feb to June of this year ( actually since Nov 2017). Well we are in round 2. When my honey got out of the hospital and rehab in June he weighed around 167lb and with home rehab plus the rehab he had been through he had full mobility. Well as soon as the formal home rehab completed, my honey started slacking off and his weight started going up. He went up to the 180's and in the last week has gone from 197 to 206.6 lbs! During this whole time he has blamed his weight gain on my cooking ( as per dr orders I cook low sodium, low carbs and high protein) and everything else he could except himself. Now he has a tummy that Santa could envy, his legs dimple when you touch them and his genitals are double their normal size. As I pointed out the changes that have been occuring (hoping he would at least start walking around the house some) he told me to quit nagging and advised that I am a fine one to talk about weight. Told him I am not the one gaining ( I am down from 206 to 179lbs). And he has fallen 4 times since the end of October. One fall he injured his ribs, bloodied his nose, tore his knees up when he and the walker fell. Each time I have called the FD partly as I cannot lift him, but after the way he treated me during his last hospital and rehab stay so that it is documented that I am not mistreating him. (Wouldn't hurt or mistreat him for the world). Tonight when he could not get off the toilet (even though it has a 5 inch riser on it) without my help I noticed how the fluid retention had increased and mentioned it. His response was that I am just trying to build a case to get him in the hospital. My response... I don't have to as you have already built a case against yourself.
I am so worried about him. It seems like since doctor told us that he is dying and may not be a candidate for a heart pump he has given up. (that was a week ago last thurs) He has been gaining an average of 1 lb a day since then. He is dehydrated but won't believe me as he only believes what the doctor and nurses tell him. His skin looks like crocidile skin. He is bruising very easily and I can't get him to go to the hospital nor can the paramedics. And he is only 66. I have advised him that if he cannot get up on his own tomorrow he IS going to the hospital....period.
Will write more later. Thank y'all so much for listening. Right now I am exhausted and am going to crawl on the couch to try to catch a little sleep. He has been sleeping sitting up on the couch for the last few weeks so don't want to be too far away in case he needs me.
My honey does not want me to tell his brother and SIL what the doctor said last time or anything about his edema. But they are supposed to come up the 16th unless he is already in the hospital. I was going to stay up and work on a painting I have been working on, but just too worn out. Y'all have a great day.