She has dementia. There has been a gradual decline but she was living alone at 91 with support from me helping her pay bills, running errands, doing some housework but she was still mowing her own grass then. I don't know it's just that she was so independent just a few short years ago and now bedridden on hospice....just hard to accept.
She had just lost her ability to walk before being hospitalized for a high fever but she could still sit up on the couch. Now she fidgets with her gown when needing to go to bathroom and asks to get up. Just hard to see her like this. I keep thinking I should try to get her out of the bed but know that's not possible. If I take a day off which is kinda rare and go somewhere all I keep thinking about is her laying there and can't get up and I feel guilty for going out. Anyone else feel this way???