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My Mom (74) lives in New York has breast cancer and recently had a lumpectomy. Turns out she needs a mastectomy now followed by chemo and radiation. She doesn’t drive. She won’t take uber or public transport. I live in Oregon while my brother lives in Florida. My Dad passed away in 2021. She relied on him for EVERYTHING. She has 1 friend, doesn’t go to church, has no support network. I kept telling her to move to OR or FL but that is a very tall task.



I flew out for the lumpectomy and stayed for ten god awful days sleeping on the floor of her very unkept house. On the final day she asked me how much I weighed and told me I need to lose weight. I am 5’6 and weigh 180. I know this already and am actively working on it. Like, this is what you want to say to me after ten days of caretaking?



I’ve told her a million times I can’t deal with wound care or drains. She has to hire a home health care aide. She just grunts when I say this. Instead she says you will have to be there post mastectomy. She doesn’t ask, she just demands.



I told her I can’t fly out to drive her someplace that is 15 minutes away when radiation starts. It is unreasonable. Her elderly brother (80) is her neighbor and currently drives her to some appointments but the guy probably shouldn’t even be driving anymore. He has also expressed to me that I need to relocate to take care of her.



I just don’t know what to do. I refuse to uproot my entire life because she can’t get herself to treatment. My brother uses an excuse of having a shitty low paying job while I on the other hand am self employed which makes them both think I can drop what I’m doing to be the primary caretaker.



I am feeling so drained and annoyed at the entire situation and just don’t know what to do. I do not want to be her caretaker. She is completely incapable of doing things for herself without having a full meltdown. Like calling her doctors, printing out a form, picking something off the floor when she drops it. It’s like she wants slaves to do it all for her.



She also does this thing when someone does call to check in she pretends to have a sore throat. It’s so annoying!



Am I a horrible person?

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Hi everybody OP here.

wow I am so touched by all of the time you spent on helping me figure this out and letting me have a space to vent. It is so appreciated.

I called her cancer center’s Social Worker and was given some information. She is entitled to $500 in rides to and from treatment. It is a plain ole taxi company but the hospital sets it up so it feels more “official” than a Lyft or Uber. Once she runs out of the $500 she can pay out of pocket. But this should get her to and fro for a while.

I need to tell her surgeon that she will need “wound care”. The surgeon if they are cool just needs to write a script and then Medicare will send someone over to deal with that stuff. It the surgeon doesn’t do it SW has a list of private place she can help contact for post surgical care.

I told my Mom both of these things and she grunted.

But! It made me feel a lot better to have the social worker involved. She’s like give us the dates of treatment when it is time and we will set up the rest. Voila!

My Mom called me today going on and on about something, I set a timer for five minutes and then told her I had to hang up.

So much of this experience is about boundaries and being firm.

The cleaning lady is coming for a second time next week. It is attached to my Mom’s credit card so that is taken care of.

I feel like I accomplished a lot today. Baby steps. Thank you again for this support. It means so much to have other folks to lean on during this trying time.

I’ll keep updating when things come up! More venting may follow;)
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NeedHelpWithMom May 2023
Happy to hear that you were able to make some progress.
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You aren't a horribne person, but neither can you expect a woman who is unwell and has been dependent her whole life to magically become capable of handling everything herself.

You'll have to make definitive statements like "you'll have to move" or "we're getting you a driving service/home aides," then make it happen. If she refuses, then you say "I'm sorry, but I've done all I can."

Moving your life is off the table, so that's a non-starter and don't even discuss it.
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Pdxvianyc Apr 2023
Thank you for seeing both sides of the situation. You’re totally right I can’t expect her to up and become a different person. I really appreciate your advice and will do my best to be more firm!
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I have said this so many times before. The person who needs the assistance needs to be the one to compromise. Your mother refuses to compromise. Your mother refuses to help herself. Your mother refuses to make things easier for you when you try and help. Don't sacrifice your life because she can't be bothered to help herself. She refused to move closer to either of you (and if she did that would not have been pleasant either).

Make the list on what you can do from the West Coast. Call the doctor and explain the situation, they might have programs to help her. Of course you know she will turn them down because you need to be there. Make it very clear that you can't be there. You are self employed which means if you don't work, you don't eat.

Caring for my father I was willing to do things he couldn't do but refused to help with things he couldn't be bothered to do for himself. Your mother doesn't want to take any responsibility for herself yet somehow thinks you should?
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Beatty May 2023
"Your mother doesn't want to take any responsibility for herself".

This sums it up. It underpins her described behaviour & attitude in many ways.

Strong boundaries are the way to teach responsibility.
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First and foremost - be VERY, VERY careful about encouraging your mom to move to you. If this is a 74 year old woman who has no support system in place after living for a long time (I'm assuming) in the same location without one, what do you think will happen if she moves 3000 miles away into a new place where she knows *ONLY* 1 person - you? This is not a woman who is going to have a sudden epiphany, where the light of the Lord shines in on her while the angels sing and says to herself "hey, there are a lot of things that I CAN do for myself!". If you think she's dependent on you NOW, from 3000 miles away, how do you think she's going to be once she's, say, 3 miles away? And who do you think will bear the brunt of that attitude?

Insofar as her "expectations" - well, many, many parents have unreasonable, unrealistic expectations of their kids. Some expect them to go into certain jobs; some expect them to have lots of kids to give them many grandchildren, some expect them to put their lives on hold once they (the parents) reach an age where they need care. But your mom's expectations don't have to be YOUR problem, unless you AGREE to make them so. If mom had expected you to have half a dozen kids so she could have many grandkids, would you have agreed to that? If you had already made the decision to have no children? Do you see the point I'm trying to get to?

Here's what I suggest you do. First, make a list (for yourself) of things you ARE willing to do. Make it today, then set it aside and ruminate on it overnight. Look at it tomorrow and edit it as you see fit. Remember, once you make the offer of what you're willing to do, it will be hard - given your dynamic with your mom - to rescind the offer. THEN once the list is "finalized" tell mom: "I am not going to move in with you to take care of you. I AM willing to HELP you arrange for rides to your appointments; I am willing to HELP you arrange for an aide to come in to help you; I AM willing to HELP you arrange for a housekeeper; etc.

The other thing I might consider doing, were I in your position, is privately make a few phone calls. Call mom's oncology office and explain her situation. That she has no support system, and that you are 3000 miles away and CANNOT be expected to put your life and livelihood on hold to take care of her. You can also try the American Cancer Association for any practical advice they might be able to give. Your mom lives in Queens NY, not in the middle of NoWhere, USA. There ought to be resources available to her that she - and you - can take advantage of. She's not the only senior who has had to face a cancer diagnosis and the resulting treatment with no children around to take care of her. Don't let ANYONE try to convince you otherwise, either!

Good luck to you!!
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JoAnn29 May 2023
Her Mom is already isolated herself. Thats the problem.
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The F.O.G is clearing.

Now with fresher eyes you are seeing the wider picture.

- That Mom needs more than you or your brother can provide.
- That many barriers to help are due to Mom's attitude & limitations (agoraphobia, anxieties?)

Sometimes it helps to take the unworkable options OUT of future planning. I see these as being out;

- You moving to NY
- Mom moving to your state, into her own place - lacks independance to do so
- Mom moving to your state, into your place - not workable
- FMLA you - self-emp
- FMLA brother - no $

What's left?

Mom will HAVE to accept help by others. Accept help, transportation & recovery care by others. From *Non-Family people*. No choice.

"No man (or woman) is an island" goes the saying.
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Pdxvianyc May 2023
Wow this is so helpful to see it listed out like this. Also non family people… yes this is what she needs to accept. The fog is definitely clearing. Thank you!
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I think u mentioned ur self-employed so I don't see how FMLA will work here. I also don't think u get paid, thru FMLA, for the time you take off. That needs to be looked into, if you can get special unemployment.

I think you need to talk to the surgeon and Oncologist and tell them Moms situation. Tell them she has no one to help her after the surgery. You live 3000 miles away and are self-employed. That there will be no one to care for her once she is home. Also, no one to take her back and forth for radiation treatments. Mention her anxiety and agoraphobia. She may go on to Rehab which will give her some healing time. Transportation maybe set up with the surgeons/oncology depts. Medicare may pay for in home care. All this you need to find out before you can make any decisions.

I find there are people who make up things in their heads how they think things should go and when the don't go the way they expected it to go, they lash out. At 73 I know I probably could not expect u to come and care for me so I would need to tell my doctors I have no support system. I am sure your Mom has not done this. She just expects you to jump on a plane and be there. You need to tell her doctors differently.
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Pdx, welcome.

Is anyone mom's Power of Attorney for finances and/or Healthcare?

Are you and/or brother on HIPAA forms so that you can both impart and receive information from her healthcare providers?

I agree with a previous poster who said that someone needs to be in touch with her surgeon's office. You need to talk to them, not only about the fact that is economically not feasible for you to be mom's caregiver after her surgery, but also the unsanitary condition of her home. Sending someone with open post-surg wounds into the environment you described is a recipe for disaster.

It sounds as though mom has some significant mental health issues. Getting that out in the open with the surgeon's office will be a gateway to better understanding on their part. Don't beat around the bush. "Mom is has social phobia, is agoraphobic, won't take public transit and can't care for her home".

Mom needs "case management services". Hopefully, her doc's office or surgeon has a contact in the local contract agency that covers mom's zip code in Querns. Could be Catholic Cathities, JASA or any of a number of private organizations. Get in touch with them and be the squeaky wheel.

Get started on those phone calls and let us know what you find out.

AND no, you're not a horrible person.
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Pdxvianyc May 2023
We are in the process of setting up a trust, her will, and all the health directives. I have spoken to her surgeon and her oncologist and they have divulged info to me so I guess I must be legally allowed to hear the info. I will double check this tho. The only issue with talking to them “on the record” is that they summarize every conversation and put it on my Mom’s portal. I’m a but hesitant to use the direct phrase of social phobia and agoraphobia but I explain her situation quite clearly and they seem to get it. Thank you for your reply!
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You already know what to do. You tell M that you won’t be there for the mastectomy, more treatment, or post-operative care. You give her some phone numbers for options, for transport, for post-operative care and for in-home care. And you stick to it.

M probably doesn’t believe you. It is important to be very firm and very clear. No comments like “we’ll see how things go”. You tell B that’s what is going to happen, and give him the lists as well. If M doesn’t get things organised and you get a desperate phone call (from anyone), you say you are unable to come, and it’s an unsafe discharge. Let the Social Worker at the hospital work it out. Give her a copy of the lists you gave to M and B.

You are NOT a horrible person. M is responsible for herself, like so many other older women who have to cope with this.
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Pdxvianyc Apr 2023
Ugh why is it so hard to do what we already know? My Mom has been like this my entire life. Always relying on others but not doing much for anyone else. I’ve worked very hard in therapy, and in my marriage etc to not be like her. I feel badly that her life is what it is but she is who made it that way. I’m finally in a place where things are stable and I can actually exercise and get my head back on post the death of my father and dealing with my Mom’s emotions and her living alone.

I appreciate your response and your confidence in this stranger. I’m going to take your advice and make that list up.

I had asked my B to make ONE phone call to an org of volunteer drivers but he never did it… I guess that’s why I always end up doing it all, otherwise nothing happens…

Thank you again for your time.
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Help mom arrange for in home caregivers to be there for her to drive her to her appointments. Call an agency and set it all up using her funds. You can't move, drive 3000 miles OR expect her to suddenly become self sufficient and unafraid, all alone, and facing the ugliness that awaits her along with the side effects. She needs help to get thru the next x amount of time.
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Is she in NYC? Tell her to take a taxi and stop being ridiculous.

If she's living elsewhere in New York State, tell her to take an Uber and stop being ridiculous.
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Pdxvianyc Apr 2023
She is in Queens, hasn’t taken a subway, bus or taxi by herself in 50 years. She has never flown or traveled by herself. She doesn’t go to the grocery store by herself and orders food online. It’s a nightmare. She even has a hard time talking to strangers on the phone. Won’t answer the door unless she knows who it is. She doesn’t even walk her dog! She has a house and the dog goes in the yard…
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