I feel suicidal after taking care of my mother for 10 years with no support.

I agree with Sharynmarie. It does make things worse if you dwell on it. My mother isn't around helping to take care of her mother, so the task falls on me. The harder part of the matter is I'm 25 and just newly bought a home. My fiance is contemplating on us having kids in the near future. I refuse to do both. It was just be too hard.

So, for now I'm doing the best I can for my grandmother. It's a tough path and I don't know if there are other options for you (retirement home, visiting nurses or otherwise) to help with the caregiving and give yourself some time in between if there's noone else around.

Julie~Please try to understand that you cannot focus on your siblings lack of caring. This will only make you feel worse. The truth is they have a choice to help or not just like you have a choice. I know this is probably not what you want to hear but unfortunately, family is not always there for us. You need to learn to emotionally detach from your siblings and just focus on you and your mother. Have you checked into respite care so you can have a break? The Area on Aging in the county or city you live should be able to help you this. It is very important that You get some time to breath. Google detaching with love from family members, if you can learn to do this, it will help you so much. Family lets us down during these difficult times and remaining angry with them only adds to your depression, anxiety and anger. They will have to deal with their short comings at some point in time just don't let it be on you. I am sure you will get others opinions and advise that may be more beneficial than what I have posted. Please know my heart goes out to you, I understand how you feel and God is not punishing you. He gave us "free will" to choose and your siblings have made their choice. God is in your corner supporting you, strengthening you and encouraging you to reach out to others who care and can direct you to help. Hugs to you!!