Commented on a discussion 4/7/2010 at 9:26 pm
Dear Deefer12, I feel your pain and understand your frustrations. I live it everyday. I asked God to show me what to do and how to do it and He did. I put God first in all of my decisions and in I pr
...Read MoreDear Deefer12, I feel your pain and understand your frustrations. I live it everyday. I asked God to show me what to do and how to do it and He did. I put God first in all of my decisions and in I pray when things get a little rough and they always get rough and difficult. God has given me a way to deal with it. I was overwhelmed and stressed and it landed it me in the hospital. After I got out of the hospital, my friend and I took my mother on a cruise and it was the best thing I could have done for my mom. But it was also the best thing I could have done for myself...I came back with a new mindset that I believe was due to prayer and faith that God would guide me. I took time to myself on the cruise to pray and reflect on what I was going through. I decided that I could no longer to have my own private pity party. I decided to utilize respite, I joined a gym and started working out 2 times a week and I decided to balance my life with work, caring for my mom and taking care of myself. I realized that unless I made changes, I was going to continue to spiral down the same road I was on before. A road that was filled with anger, depression, and guilt. That is not what God wants for us. God never promised us that we would not have trials and tribulations. We don not know why these things happen but they do. We do not know why we are the chosen ones but we are... but if we remain faithful and continue to pray, God will make a way. Prayer has made a huge difference in my life because it is my direct link to God who is the only One who can change things.. I am calmer. I take a day at a time and I realize that it is what it is and I can either manage it in a positive and focused manner or I could be come cold, calloused and bitter. I know that it is hard, especially if you are the only caregiver, like I am, but there are resources out there and you have a community of people on this site that understand and care. Caregiving can consume you, if you let it. Sometimes you can feel like you are the all alone but you are not. I will continue to lift you up in prayer and please reach out to others and seek the resources that are available to you. Be blessed!