Commented on a discussion 2/19/2011 at 11:50 am
Vent all you want, that is why we are here. I found out the hard way that holding in the anger was worse then anything else. Since my husbands passing, I have gone on a whole lifestyle change, lost c
...Read MoreVent all you want, that is why we are here. I found out the hard way that holding in the anger was worse then anything else. Since my husbands passing, I have gone on a whole lifestyle change, lost close to 100 pounds (more to go) started an excercise regime, started seeing a wonderfun man who makes me laugh and feel like a kid again, working on a book about my journey through his illness. I am going more and doing more, joined a theatre group, the VFW, the Moose, go to Karoke, all the things I wanted to do but could not before. And guess what, I don't feel a bit guilty. I just turned 62, I have raised a family, lived through the death of my son, the death of my husband, a 35 year marriage, I have been married twice and felt like I was always someone to everyone else and never me, which was a big question I asked, now what? where do I turn, what do I do, I have been a mom, a sister, a daughter, an aunt, a wife, a nurse, now, who is Jason's mom? I guess for the first time in my life I am finally finding out, and my journey has just begun. My advice is to do things and go places, I understand the being tied down, my husband never wanted to go anywhere or do anything, the cigarettes and tv were his best friends. If I wanted to go somewhere he would tell me to just go and then he would be so furious for days and wouldn't talk. I just stayed at home, the guilt kept me there. What I should have done in hinesight was get someone to come keep him company and just go. Vent? you go girl, vent, vent, vent!