Commented on a discussion 1/20/2009 at 7:29 pm
Hi Everyone
needed to vent so thought I would come here besides journaling about it. Mother just irritated the hell out of me. I bought her gambling crap like I do EVERY single day. Well, I go
...Read MoreHi Everyone
needed to vent so thought I would come here besides journaling about it. Mother just irritated the hell out of me. I bought her gambling crap like I do EVERY single day. Well, I got holy hell when I gave it to her. She starts saying what is the matter with you Cynthia, where is your mind? Why didn't the guy remember to give you my forms, where are my forms? Why didn't I win money, you must have given me the wrong results yesterday. Then she makes this crazy motion with her hands as she is tellimg me all this. Mimicking how I am losing my mind. So, later I go back to the Gas station and ask the guy for her forms back. He gives them to me and says yeah, I forgot to give it to you. I say to him, yeah, she is having at tizzy fit. I proceed to buy her 3 scratchers. So, I get home and guess what? She starts in on me again for only buying her 3 scratchers instead of 5! She said you know I told you that when I buy only 3 I don't win anything but when I get 5 I get something. I tell you well I thought I hear you say 3. Then she starts talking about how I am forgetting everything cause I have too much on my mind (meaning my daughter's 21st birthday today.) You know I am to put her first above all else and if I dare think of others I better get all her business completely perfect. When this crap happens it makes me so tired. I told her I am doing my best I have a lot on my mind. She says yeah, I know. I then tell her I am doing my best, if my best is not good enough I am sorry..but it's all I can do. Maybe you should get my brother to do it, then I leave. Today is my daughter's 21st birthday. She's been home since Friday with her bf of course...cause she doesn't drive herself anywhere. I have had them both here...and my parents, husband daughter bf and I went to Disneyland in Anaheim yesterday for part of daughter's celebration and I am dead beat..she gets to rest I get to cook etc..all day doing something first time I sat down to rest today..and now I have to go and do the GD dinner. Granddaughters, and their mother are coming over. What am I everybody's monkey? Always doing and entertaining others? Everyone wants a piece of me. And, Im not talking sex here..Hah! As if...anyone wants me...as if I want anyone, as if I want sex for goodness sakes! That is a whole other story..lol. Tired of being the monkey..and having monkeys on my back going push them the hell off soon..Need a BREAKKKKKKKKkkkkkkkkkkkk.
On another note..hope you all are having a better day then me..
We have a new president...yeahhhhhhhhh
Hugs
Me Cindi the monkey you know.