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arose4yu 5/25/2010 at 9:26 pm

hiya guys!!! I know I never visit anymore...but really youre always on my mind! I am soooooooooo depressed , even now that momz is in the home ...yep shes been there for about 3 months now.
...Read Morehiya guys!!! I know I never visit anymore...but really youre always on my mind! I am soooooooooo depressed , even now that momz is in the home ...yep shes been there for about 3 months now.
But it aint been no cakewalk! I have had soooo many battles, finances fallen to nothing! and still more money problems! friends abannoed me...felt love for someone who i thought may be the one...he wasnt! hearbreak, let , downs, and poverty.....hey that could be a soap opera title! lol!!
She constanly calls , and if she doesnt here the magic words..YOUR COMIN HOME FOR GOOD... she looses it! I get insulted hung up on ...MADEA MAHEM!! Guys I still cry my heart out....I still grieve, I am a emotional mess, and whats bad is it depends on her mood...if shes content I will be..if not ..im not...i am soooooo attached to my momz...i know its part grief, and realizing what i have to face...AND FACING IT ALONE.
I try to keep busy...now i am job hunting. I dont go to see her every day ...now its like every other day. She does come home on weekends when I feel THINGS WILL GO OK, AND I CAN GET HER BACK...She has gone back on many occassions understanding that she has to be there for her "treatments" ( she thinks its a hospital) but other times its difficult and she stays...Guys I have come a long way...you have been a big support to me. Dont forget about me...keep my weary spirit and heart in your prayers.
Bree
ps!!!I HAVE NEGLECTED TO SAY MOMZ IS DOING WELL THERE! She doesnt want to be there forever , but she is accepting being there by the week.
As i said she comes home on weekends...when i feel like it.
She gets along well with every one...nurses, patients, aides, adminstrators.....they all thinks shes the bees knees! shes sooooooo sweet to them, She has sneaked in a couple smiles for me too....she is just so damn stubborn! when she starts missin her cats and home ..madea comes out...and the cruelty comes straight at me!
But there have been times i have just walked out..not come back for week! I am learning...but its such a hard way to learn.
jUST PLEASE PRAY FOR ME TO KEEP MY SANITY AND FIND OUT WHO BREE IS , AT THE END OF THIS!
THANKS MY FRENZ!!!