You don’t get it unless you get it... Anyone else feel this way?

Yes, I definitely get it, I wrote this poem, I think you will be able to relate,

UNTIL YOU LIVE IT by Diana Ballinger

Until you live it
You cannot know
The breaking of my heart
I am trying not to show

Until you live it
Don’t judge or give your take
For I am barely holding it together
But doing it for his sake

Until you live it
Just quietly listen or hold my hand
For the hourglass that was our life
Is quickly running out of sand

Until you live it
Watch him change with everyday
Trying to hold onto something
Forgetting how to pray

Until you live it
Which I hope you never do
Know I do the best I can
And face each day anew

And you then suggest...
Why not stop and get some donuts and coffee and come over here and we can chat.
You call a friend and say..."I could use some company tomorrow I will make lunch would you like to stop at the Library and pick up a movie, I trust you to pick a good one"

You are right people don't know exactly what it is like until they are caring for someone. Probably much the same way it is with young couples when the first in the group has a baby...life changes dramatically.

Now some advice for you. You need to have a caregiver come in at least 1 day a week so you can get out. (if not 1 day a week 2 times a month would be better than none) You can meet with friends, go to a movie, go shopping, care for yourself. This is just as important as caring for your loved one. "We" can not do this all ourselves 24/7/365 we need help,we need a break, we need to ask for and accept help when it is offered.

Well, not with dementia because my mom has Parkinson’s but yes, no matter what the situation is unless people have experienced it they simply don’t understand, plus everyone has individual circumstances that make things difficult for us personally.

They say stupid crap like, “You are so blessed to have your mom for this long. Love her while she is with you.” It’s not about love. Caregiving is a burden so yes you make a very valid point!

My caregiving days are over and I feel so much relief. I just couldn’t do anymore. 15 years was long enough!

Take care.

The only explaination that ever seemed to get the message across was when I asked my friend in exchange...would you just take a day off and leave your two year old home alone?
only....my Dad is big enough to make real trouble, and tear the house apart. Elderly dementia victims are far worse than the terrible twos.

Sometimes I think I have become the most boring person on the planet. But it turns out that when I don't talk about my mom, my friends ask me why I'm not sharing my great stories any longer. They are actually interested in her adventures into the land of make believe and confusion. And I know they care about my well being too, but you are correct, they cannot understand unless they've done the hands on care giving day after day after week after month after year.

Call me naive but I really didn't understand Dementia/Alzheimer's until I became the caregiver for my mother. I thought that it was just forgetfulness and a little agitation because of the forgetfulness. Never in my wildest dreams did I realize that there would also be aggressiveness, hallucinations, delusions, exit seeking, incontinence, stubborness and to top it off requiring 24/7 care . I think a part of the reason people are so naive about Dementia/Alzheimer's is no one wants to discuss it unless they are affected by it, because there is a misconception that the person with the disease must be crazy. If you tell someone that your LO has cancer you immediately hear I am so sorry to hear that but if you tell them your LO has dementia they are at a loss for words. The sad thing is dementia is always a terminal disease and cancer does not have to be. There needs to be much more public discussion about dementia

I have been my husbands sole caregiver. He has two brothers, one of whom kinda gets it and has visited, called and helped me out when we had to prep our home for sale. The other is a lost lad on his own island. He also has two sisters. They each live in another state. Recently, I wanted to share with them that their brother was in the hospital. Well! The one sister begged me to let the doctors decide what was best and that the reason he "wasnt doing so well" was because i supposedly took him off a med without talking with his doctor! (Untrue). She also sent him a box of teabags in the past that were supposed to be good for memory. The other sister (who he has always been distant from) shared her sad story of losing her beloved cat because she did nothing and implored me to get her brother help so she didn't lose him too! Meanwhile, back at the hospital 24hours each of the 6 days he was in, I was at his side. All their comments were on messenger. No one called me. They took it upon themselves to make cruel accusations and attack me from afar after not even seeing him for more than 2 years. The whole family feels he was misdiagnosed and that some wonder drug would have helped but for some unknown reason I withheld it!! Yeah, like caring for my 58 y/o husband in this condition who will be taken from me way too soon is preferable to getting back the "other" man I love. Yes, they don't and never will get it. We who are here do though, and I am greatful to be able to vent with kindred souls.

GoodBird I know exactly what you are talking about. When a Carer takes the roll of Caregiver to a Family member it is hands on, 24/7 X 365 from day one. The Person Who you are Caring for is completely dependent on you, and trust you with their Life. Outside the walls of your garden the World doesn't exist any more. As for attending cinema, meet up with Friends, head off to the Bar for a drink is all but a faded memory. You get up out of bed every morning and feel jaded, whacked, exhausted because you have been up attending to your loved one during the night as well. If you manage to get a few hours sleep in, you learn as a Carer to sleep with one eye open and silently you cry out "God will I ever get my Life back to where it used to be ? Being a Carer to an Elder Who suffers from dementia or alzheimer's consumes you but you do it out of pure love, knowing that this beautiful Person Who you Care for, would have Cared for you had circumstances been reversed.

You obviously touched a nerve with many caregivers. Many of us feel the same. People think they are offering support by telling us what good people we are for what we are doing, and then they go about living their own lives, telling us why they can't help. I don't buy into that anymore. We do it because our loved one needs us, not because we are angels or because there is a place for us in heaven. We do it because it is the right thing to do. Just because they close their eyes doesn't mean it isn't happening. Caregiving for someone with dementia takes a toll on the caregiver, on relationships, and often our own financial well being. You are not alone in this. We all feel your pain. Thank God for sites like this where we can share and find support. Here's to all of us for giving up a part of ourselves to take this on when so many others can walk away. In the end, we will know that we didn't turn our backs. There but for the grace of God go us.

Goodbird, you are singing to the choir! I had no idea what it would be like until I started to deal with my father's diminished capacity. Now it seems my mother is joining the ranks of the "less than usual" cognitive abilities. I keep thinking I'll be able to have a cogent conversation, but it usually goes out the window. I haven't been out with a friend without my parents in what feels like years. I have a home in another state that I haven't been to for 18 months or more. Everything I do revolves around them and I'm running out of topics for conversation when I do get to talk to my few remaining friends. You don't get it unless you know!