After spending one long year 24/7 with my MIL (alzheimers) I am getting resentful because seriously, I never expected it to be this long.
She has definitely settled into limbo and I no longer see decline. I really thought she'd surely be gone by now. Her bed is parked right smack in the middle of my small house and I have no privacy..
I find it much easier to handle difficult things when I can see an end. But in this case the end..................well it could very well be my end before hers. Trapped.
In 2010, I lost my fantastic husband to cancer, lost my sweet brother to cancer, lost my dear dad to stroke. A huge loss.
I am finally climbing out of my grief and would like to enjoy life a bit before it's too late. . It would be nice to just get in the car and go someplace.
To be brutally honest...................... I very much hoped it wouldn't be this long and I wish she would die already. Sorry, I'm just venting - I give her the very best care ever.