We went to see daddy yesterday and he hurt my feelings again! I was trying to have a good time and keep everything light so I told him if he didn't quit talking so much I was going to have to gag him and he just said f** you and turned away from me. I immediately got up told mom we're leaving and started crying when I got out of his room. Momma just said try not to let it get to you and don't worry about him, and that just coming up once a week would be better for me cause of how he acts towards me. Now I know this is the disease and I know I shouldn't take everything so personally. I don't know - I'm just tired of trying to do anything I can to make his life a little more comfortable even though I know it's not up to me to make him happy. It's just so hard to see him laying there, not even trying to make the best of his situation - he's basically just willing himself to die. I don't know what I'm going to do.