I should be grateful because everything seems to be in place and he is being cared for in a large nursing facility. He has dementia and is in a wheelchair.
It pulls on my heartstrings so much when I see him and yet we were never a close family. He was my mother's husband. Mom died in 2011. I helped him care for Mom during the last few years o her life as I lived nearby. Now he needs TLC and always tells me he loves me. I feel for him, and am very sad for him. He was never actually a father because my brothers and I were grown up and out on our own when He and Mom met and eventually married. My brothers are not around much and since I still live nearby to his nursing home I am his main contact.
I feel so tired and depressed and I don't know if maybe I just feel sorry for myself or what ! I am more private and introverted than social and also have some of my own medical issues (sciatica, arthritis, and tendonitis plus poor vision) I no longer drive. I am 75 in February. I live alone and am glad that I do, but I sometimes feel lonely.
Sorry for the long rant and venting. Maybe I am just selfish and bitter.
Anyone else have these feelings ?