When it's all over (if we live that long), do you move far away to get rid of the bad memories?

Lavender, I had a dear lady that I worked with, her husband died a long, painful, negative death. His memories were everywhere in the house they shared.

When she was done remembering him, as he was in the end, which took about one month, we spent days remaking her house. Everything that brought a bad memory was donated, all of his prized possessions went out the door. We added color, plants and joy back into her environment. We rearranged furniture, turned bedrooms into dens and laughed lots while doing it.

She stayed in that house until she passed. She moved her brother and SIL in and had many happy years after going through the trauma of caregiving for someone that gave her nothing but heartache.

I would recommend doing a makeover before moving. If it doesn't work, you haven't lost anything and you can decide to move. Memories do soften with time and different scenery.

LavenderBear, that is a very interesting question, glad you asked that.

When I read your home has "nice neighbors" right there is the key for staying when the time comes. One never know if they move who will be their neighbors. All new sounds [windchime lady] and odors [cigar guy] to contend with.

Of course, moving is a nice adventure, but will the comfort level be the same? I found anytime my then hubby got transferred with his company, it was weird watching the news and not seeing the anchors I had so enjoyed for many years. Then looking for a new doctor and specialists.... new dentist.... new hairdresser.... finding a grocery store you like.... learning the new roads.... finding a good mechanic... the list goes on and on.

As for memories, when the time comes, start making new memories in the house. Take the room that Mom was using and make it a home office or craft room, that would put positive vibes real quickly. Have someone help you re-arrange the furniture.

I remember when my then husband and I had split. My gosh, the house felt so stress free that I didn't think about the issues we had.

I have not given care in my home, but I have stayed in the same house through a bad marriage of considerable length. I consider this similar in that there were many bad memories in this house, and I really didn't know if I could stay here. But--I made a pro/con list, and this really helped me. I asked myself some questions and wrote things down.

What did I like about the house? I like the way it looks from the outside, I like how it sits on the lot. I love the colors. I love the land, which is home to many pretty birds and little critters. I have a certain amount of privacy, which I enjoy, etc.
Then I compared it to what I didn't like about the house. I didn't like the bad memories. That's it. So I decided to see what I could change, within a reasonable budget, and stick it out for a handful of years, and then thought if I still felt bad at the end of that time, I could move.

First, I got rid of all my ex's things, and gave those to him. Anything that was left that bothered me, I donated to a thrift store or got rid of. Slowly over time, by thrifting, buying here and there, I got some new furnishings and decor that were only mine, and had nothing to do with my past. This did take a great deal of time, but was very much worth it.

To make a long story short, I stayed for several years (6), and during that time, got the house painted, new things here and there, and really started feeling happy. Then I met the love of my life and remarried, and now we are making new happy memories in this house! He just loves the house, and I'm soooo glad I kept it.

Just an example to think about. Let time wash over you. Let your feelings settle. It will take a while. There will be some hard days. But don't make decisions on the really hard days OR the really good days. Look at it year-to-year, look at the whole picture and see how you feel. Then after a group of years, see how you feel about that whole cluster of time. I bet you will see you have changed for the better, and if you like the house to begin with, chances are highly likely you will like it even more later, and will be so glad you stayed. And if you don't feel good, you can move! You and your sweet dog can make new memories. You'll do great! I'm rooting for you!!

They say when you have a big lfe change not to do anything huge for a year or so. When Mom passed ( and she was pretty easy, but set in her ways ) we redid alot of the house. New floors we wanted and she didn;t, purged alot of stuff. I am now loving my house again.. it's my house again. I do hope to downsize one of these days..but for now I'm glad we didn;t make any sudden moves that were not "undoable"

Sounds like fantasizing about moving is perhaps the "magical thinking" you need right now to lighten your load.
I would be approaching ALL of this from another perspective entirely. There is, as you already said, not any guarantee of life after caregiving, or even until caregiving is finished. I am an atheist, and I think this is my one life.
My approach is that my life must be lived as I am ready for it. Not contingent on children who are self supporting or elders who want to live out their lives in their own home. Take for instance me. I am 80. My daughter is 60. Her husband just retired. She will in two years. Is she to give up her next decade and one half to ME? Really? That would break my heart. She is entering now a few decades of the most free life she will have. Free of her son, grown and put through college, and she MUST be free of me, and any other elder of the two of them. That's just my opinion. It is how I was raised. My parents raised me that way. They saved all their lives for their retirement and old age, they traveled, then they went to a "village" with care that increased as needed.
I have done the same.
I know that other families do it differently. The elders stay with their children until they die. Given medical care, to my mind (old nurse here) it now takes us too long to DO that. (Dying, that is). And our children age, age prematurely.
I would hate to have missed my years 60-80. We built a little second home in the woods, we hiked and weed whipped, we chopped wood and burned it in the iron stove. We watched nature, the foxes in the meadow, the deer in the hedgerow.
We traveled.
We are now tired and happy enough just to get up and kind of bind up whatever hurts and get on with the day. Take a walk. Cook something. Watch what's streaming.
When one of us/both of us/whatever, have to enter care, it won't be my daughter's care. Or my partner's daughters. They will visit I hope, and get one with their lives. They are grownups with lives and children of their own.
It is different and unique for every family, and it is individual choice. Each choice has good things about it and bad things about it. I sure wish you the very best luck with your own choice.
Meanwhile, thinking about travel, moves, a little cabins in the woods? All good thoughts. And try to get away for some time with your elder in respite so you can enjoy a bit NOW. Best of luck out to you.

That's my plan. When the caregiving finally ends and I don't have to help my mom anymore, I refuse to be a caregiver or helper to ANYONE. Family, friends, and strangers are all on their own. I want NOTHING to do with caregiving.

Being my mom's caregiver is all I've known since I graduated college. She was diagnosed with cancer a couple of years after I graduated and she's still recovering from the treatments years after they ended.

Caregiving has done a lot of damage to my life. I'm almost 30 and I sometimes wonder if my life is over. I don't have a job and I'll be looking for my very first job when freedom finally comes. I'm single and I hope to one day be some woman's husband. I'm never getting my 20s back nor am I getting back moments lost to caregiving.

I hope I can move away someday. There's little in my hometown.

Don't call yourself stupid. You're not stupid. To me you sound depressed and lonely. That's understandable when a person lives in the situation you live in.
No one can sustain any kind of positive attitude when they live with constant drama, complaining, negativity, worry and pain. I know you said your post is not about kicking your mother out. There are other options. Bring in homecare to do for her. Take time off and put her into a care facility for a respite stay so you can have a break from her.
This might sound harsh to some, but when your mother starts up with the negativity, the gloom and doom, and the misery tell her to shut the hell up and nobody cares. Then ignore her and walk away.
You know that saying, 'misery loves company'. Well, it's true. Your mother wants you to join her in her misery and negativity. Don't do it. Set some boundaries with her then enforce them.
If you truly think your mother will outlive you, put her in a facility now and try to make some kind of life for yourself.
You say you recently bought the house and moved mom in. Realistically it's not like you have had a lifetime of abuse and bad memories in your house.
Make new memories. You say it would be fun to decorate the house? What's stopping you from doing that now? What's stopping you from entertaining and having friends over?
You hire a caregiver that stays with your mother in her room when you're entertaining. I've had caregiver jobs where I had to stay with a client in their room while the family was entertaining at their house. Every minute of life does not have to be about the elder's care needs or demands. Every social occasion or event does not have to include them. It's like when you're a kid and your parents are going to have company at night. The kids are not part of that. We were put to bed. If we were allowed to stay up, we stayed out of their business. Same thing with the elder in the house. They do not have to be part of everything.
As for being "happy". Please. Strive for being content with moments of happiness peppering your life. Trying to be happy all the time must be exhausting. Content is better.
One more thing. No matter where you move, your memories go with you because they're part of you. Try to come to terms with them. Sometimes therapy can help.
And would you please invite some friends over for drinks or coffee? Without including your mother and her misery. Keep us posted.

I think you'll have to wait for mom to pass first to know how you will feel about the house, and whether you think you'll be able to stay or if you'll need to leave. But in the meantime, there are things for you to think about & projects you can do to prepare for your future.

Memories can be dealt with this way:
Go thrifting & buy 2 suitcases that need love; old & beat up, like you'll be feeling after all the caregiving is finished. Collect seashells which you love and which bring you joy; either go to the beach to do that, if you live near the shore, or buy them. Cover one of the old suitcases with seashells; glue them on there with a hot glue gun and make the case look lovely & decorative. After mom dies, put all of the positive memories you have of her in there, along with photos & cards/mementos you've collected over the years, her memorial card/funeral card, her favorite items of clothing/jewelry, her wedding photo, etc. That will be your happy memory box to hold onto.

The other suitcase which is old and battered, leave it that way. Fill it with all the bad memories you have of the hard times with mom; the negativity, the hurt feelings, the bad times, the hospital stays, the events where you felt 'stupid' and guilty over things that were said or done, ALL OF IT. Pack up all of those negative memories & baggage into that suitcase and go out into the garden and burn the whole thing up. Let go of everything that way as you watch it smolder and burn. It'll be a good symbol of letting go of the negativity of the past.

Afterward, go in the house and start renovations. Knock it all down to the rafters and rebuild the entire thing, as you're going to rebuild your LIFE/ fresh & clean. Start over. Use the money you would have spent in closing costs, movers, realtor fees, packing materials, and do a renovation. Or as much of a renovation as you can afford with all new and shiny things. Keep only the seashell covered suitcase as a reminder of the positive memories of your old life and of your mother. The rest is all gone, and replaced with new & fresh items to represent the new YOU. Your newly remodeled/redecorated house will be a place to create NEW memories as you wish and see fit! That will be fun, I think!

I think there will always be options for your future when you keep an open mind and a positive outlook. Your caregiving days are numbered; mom won't be here forever. I really thought my mother would live to 100, but she wound up dying all of a sudden, when I least expected it. Everyone kept telling me that would likely happen, but I didn't believe it. I should have b/c it's true.

Keep your head up and your eyes toward the future. Wishing you the very best of luck.

First of all you can never outrun you're bad memories by moving, you need help with this, I am in counseling right now. One thing my Dr said is when I think of something bad ask myself what I can do about it. The answer is always "nothing" for me. Secondly never do anything hasty. Give yourself a year to think about big decisions. If you really like your little house - give it a facelift. Remodel, get rid of old furniture, repaint. Hope this helps.....

I was living in a duplex with my Mom in her half and my brother in his half with his wife and two kids. It was miserable. I moved out and went to Maine leaving the circus in Ohio. Less than a year later my mom moved to Maine. I did not let her move in my house. She moved in a senior apartment. We got along fairly well until she died a few months later. My Mom was a PITA and I have very few good Memories of her. I kept her on the outside of my life in Maine. I went to dinner with her occasionally and when she started having health problems I drove her to appointments, visited with her. I'm glad she didn't to live with me in Maine - she stayed a few nights and then moved into senior apt. She didn't get to spread her negativity and hatefulness in to my house. After 6 years of my niece and nephew fighting with me over ownership of the duplex it finally sold last year. I had 19 years living there and 6 years fighting over total ownership. A totally miserable chapter I wouldn't wish on anyone.