Mom is 80 diagnosed ( 6yrs ago) with vascular dementia. It has become harder for me since she's getting worse, with her speech, walking, and severe anxiety. To the point that she gets really angry.
She takes Effexor for depression and 5m valium for the anxiety in which doctor wants me to only give her 1/2 and the other 1/2 later in the day if I have to. I had to administer the whole pill the other day since she fell and got violent and started screaming to the neighbor who was trying to help me get her off the floor.
I have been living with my mother for 3 years now and this is not easy. It's been taking a toll on me that I'm not really taking good care of myself, and it has affect me mentally. I think, breath, dream mom 24/7
I don't have a life anymore. Hardly anyone comes to the house since she gets angry that they are taking away our time together
Which all she does is watch tv all day long.
As much as I would like to care for her till the end I don't think I can. I'm actually doing more damage to myself mentally and it's starting to show. Not being able to focus on my daily chores.
In addition to that, drinking wine at night to relax and being able to fall asleep without thinking of anything has become a habit.
I'm the only child and the rest of the family is in NY and we live in NC.
My patience is running thin.
Thank you in advance for any advice