My husband is 84 and suffers from dementia. I am 74. We have had a beautiful 38 year marriage. we have sailed and traveled many long distance adventures. His condition has been gradual for the past 9 years, but now he can't be left alone. I am using some companion services a few hours a week, but it is very expensive and confusing to him. I do not have a good relationship with his 2 children, and have to almost beg them to give me an occasional break. I am still healthy and adventurous .I feel so TRAPPED and so lonely.
Use your resources to either hire in home aides to care for your husband or place him in Memory Care Assisted Living if you don't want to be "trapped" as a caregiver. His children are not beholden to care for him. Its your job as his wife of 38 years to figure out his care, either by you, by paid caregivers or in managed care. As it would be his job to figure out, after 38 years, if you were struck down with dementia or another terminal illness.
Good luck to you.
It's not about who's a "good" child and who isn't. A good adult child who asks what they can do to help had a good parent. If they didn't why should they take on caregiving for that parent? Being elderly and needy are not good enough reasons.
You get what you give in life. The OP and her husband had 38 years to build a relationship with his kids and they didn't.
It appears that, for WHATEVER reason, his children do not wish to have anything to do with him or with you. That isn't something that will change, isn't something you can do anything about.
That means that, yes, you are alone as if they never existed.
I would write them that you are now having to consider placement of your dear hubby in care, that he is no longer safe at home alone and you are overwhelmed and cannot do this anymore. Ask if they wish to have a "family meeting" about this before you begin to explore the options.
They may, if the wish to protect any inheritance they figure may come to them, step in to help a bit. You will have to decide if it's enough. If not you should see an elder law attorney about division of assets and ways to protect your own money as your husband goes into the care he deserves.
You have had a good marriage, but this is no longer the man that you married. Sadly, you have limitation in what you CAN do.
So give them that chance to lend a hand or to take on care; if that doesn't work you need to begin to think about placement or hire in help. Because yes, this is now where you are at, whether anyone likes it or not.
Your post really resonates with me because I have an adult son who I didn't give birth to yet I've been his mother since he was two years old. His father and I were divorced for a while and I was still his mom. I always had time for him too. Is the same thing true of you and you husband with his kids? You had 38 years together and that's a long time. His adult kids weren't always adults.
It's not their job to become caregivers to their father. You will have to make another arrangement like placing him in LTC or getting live-in caregivers for him.
Yes, it's very expensive and will not be free. Depending on how you and your husband set up your assets and estate, you may not be able to afford to be adventurous and travel anymore. Many people are in the same situation as you. That doesn't mean their kids are going to be the free back-up plan.
When he left for the last and final time, he washed some clothes, packed them, and never came back except to come and check in. He didn't give my mother any money. My mother would have to call this woman's house to tell her husband to call home regarding the bills. He and his lady friend did a good deal of traveling and none of us were invited except for her children and my middle brother. Our family became divided after this.
After mom died, dad married this woman less than five months later. My grandmother called and told me. I asked him why didn't he tell me. The excuse was I didn't like his wife. I think the real reason was that he was ashamed to tell me.
Dad died in 2014. I haven't spoken to that woman until this day almost nine years later. Her choice of course.
No, I did not share in his care. After all I allowed the both of them to put me through, there was no way I was going to allow myself to be further used and abused by them. I would have more to say, but that kind of language is not allowed here.
After dad died, he left all of his bio children including his disabled daughter one dollar.
Sometimes adult children may have a good reason for not becoming involved as in my case. I did go visit him and I did have him over at my apartment before he died.
It doesn't matter. It is irrelevant to the matter of caring for this man as he declines.
Now that I re-read OP's complaint, Simbaya is making herself a victim,
"I'M SO TRAPPED AND LONELY". Because she still wants to continue to have adventures, and the husband's condition makes that not possible now.
Simbaya, you CAN continue to have adventures. Place your husband in a memory care facility and live your life as you wish.
Did you spend all your money on past travel and adventures so that you now have nothing left to provide for his care?
If that is the case, then this is now the price you pay for those great adventures.
The bottom line is, You do not have to become your husband's full time caregiver. And, your husband's sons do not have to become his caregiver or your relief caregivers. There are other care options.
You have enjoyed a beautiful marriage. Try and enjoy these last years with your husband, before he is gone. If you don't want to take care of him, don't.
If you do continue to care for him, get some outside help, and quit making his condition about you. He is not trying to trap you. He is vulnerable and has no control over his dementia, and I'm sure he would wish this was not the case!
It is not your stepchildren's job to rescue you.
Nevertheless, I'd like to soften this a little.
I think that many of us do tend to think of our own lives and how they've shrunk to becoming a caregiver, so we inadvertently make ourselves a victim. Simbaya isn't unique in this. We're human and we can't be perfect.
Sometimes it's difficult to see our situation from a different perspective, especially while we're grieving our loved one who has changed irrevocably and we're grieving the life we shared with them, as well as who we used to be.
So, while accepting that our outlook may be distorted, we shouldn't beat ourselves up for falling into the position of victim - we weren't the first and we certainly won't be the last.
But, having recognised that we aren't helping ourselves, it's time to pull up our socks and to make a start. The first thing is to let go of any thought processes that aren't serving, and change our beliefs about our lives.
E.g. believing that it's wrong for our loved one to go into care, or believing that we can't be happy again without them by our side, or believing that we can't do this alone. NO! That type of thinking is what traps us, so we need to turn those thoughts around in order to change our lives.
You can't change others, only yourself. So, that's where you have to start if you want to see changes and improvements in your life.
You will find here that the vast majority of us, having done the caregiver thing ourselves, are huge proponents of getting our ducks in a row and planning for the future - one that doesn't require our own children to provide hands-on caregiving when the time comes.
You mention the dreaded double-edged sword. You are in a caregiving scenario for your husband of 38 years - but you are not the mother of his children - AND you do not have a good relationship with them. I, like Grandma1954, find it odd that after 38 years in the family, there isn't at least a working relationship with his children.
I'll go out on a limb and hazard a guess that there is some history there. (I mean I was only part of my abusive, narcissistic FIL's family for 30 years and still helped with his care - I would go so far as to say I could not STAND the man, but I love my husband and he needed my help so I helped until we could find another option)
Your title says "adult kids don't like stepmom". Your post says you don't have a good relationship with them. Either way - if you are having to beg them for an occasional break, and they are not offering to help because they want to help their dad (let's leave you out of the equation entirely - because I'm thinking maybe their relationship with Dad isn't so great either) - then you have your answer.
They are not your solution.
It's time to look into other options. If he cannot be left alone you really only have 2 options. You can hire caregivers to come into the home when you cannot be there - as you mentioned - very expensive. OR you can find a residential facility and have him placed, and you can manage his care, and go back to being his wife and not his caregiver.
Either of those solutions are equally loving and continue to provide his care.
When you marry a man or woman who has kids, you have a moral duty to be a parental figure to those kids even if their mom and dad are still alive. Even if they live with their other parent (or parents these days because few people have full siblings anymore).
If a person cannot become a parent to those kids they can become a friend. When a man or a woman had kids with someone else you as the new love interest or spouse has to learn how to share the love and attention. Yet too many times there is competition between a new spouse and the old kids.
This problem is easily avoided. Don't marry a man or woman who has kids if you want all the love and attention exclusively.