At my wit's end, again. I have tried and tried and really feel I have nothing left. Mom has been at Rehab for several weeks now, I have gone down this road several times in the last several years trying to get her healthy and strong. Yesterday she beat the *&^% out of me and a CNA, this is the 3 rd time in 3 weeks she has done this to me...suprising how strong they are with rages! All because she threw her glasses in the trash and I pulled them out, it set her off in a terror! I have had her see pyschatrists in the past they have put her on meds-anti depressants. For her refusal to cooperate and general behavior issues.I have tried reaching her current DR before she went in who apparently went out of practice w/o telling anyone. I have an appt today with the Rehab's Dr. and as I was making the appt the director of nursing stated she has been hitting /slapping everyone. They want her out.... as the last 3 CNA's that worked with her quit. I don't know what to do....I want the best for her...healthy , happy she just doesn't want it for herself. I am advocating the best possible care for someone who doesn't want it and now is violent and plain nasty and mean.....I don't want her "drugged up" that defeats the purpose of trying to get her walking/transferring/excercising to save her legs.. She just wants to lay in bed 24/7 and have people care for her 24/7 in bed. I can not get through to her. It is an issue with her legs not getting blood flow properly, I prevented amputation last year and she was stented but the surgeon said she HAS to excerise! I have a week or so more at the rehab if they don't kick her out first, I don't know what to do.I don't want her in a NH plus I can not pay the price of $10,000+ a month and there is a wait list of one year. If she would try an ALF/memeory care would be possible but she has to be a one person assist.I guess how do I motivate her, want her to WANT a better life?If she had a knife yesterday I have absoutlely no doubt she would have stabbed me or shot me if she had a gun, I almost called the police it was so bad.I am afraid to bring her home now, but again she must 1 person assist in a ALF. I want to run away I am tired of crying every night and wishing she would try, see the light....I felt I was going to have a Heart Attack dealing with this yesterday...I have no family, so it is just me. She told the last psychatrist to "F off".....so I don't feel it is going to help but I will try again. I tried to put her in a short term mental health program at the hospital but she must agree to the help and she won't! She knows how to "play the game" when she wants something and I have tried everything in my power, given up marriage, all my retirement ... I have nothing left..on top of that I have back surgery tomorrow-from carrying her when she refuses to walk or use a walker or lift chair...so I am afraid what will happen when I am not there. I don't want her to hurt anyone, it is not fair to the staff who are just trying to help her! BTW she has never been caring...no i love you, thank you anything in my entire life, never once told my dad she loved him so I think this is a deep seated issue-she drank and did pills until I took over her care.....so I think she self medicated for 40 years....so maybe she hates me for that... I don't know.I can handle the verbal abuse-sort of- but this physical abuse is totally diffrent, I have left bleeding and bruised.Has anyone had a situation that was rectified by any meds or any other means to try to turn this around???Or is this the rest of my life? Which honestly I can't do anymore! HELP! Thank you all, you have been so supportive in the past, but now I am scared!BTW I do see a pyschologist myself to try to figure this out and try to cope but you can't get much resolved in 15 minute sessions and they really have no answers but meds.!