I love my mother I really do I fear her dying more than anything. She's all I have. But lately I have been so ungodly nasty impatient having outbursts of anger saying terrible things I cannot take back. I know she manipulates me I know she is a professional victim I know she is the princess in the story the princess and the pea I know she wants to be waited on instead of embracing all of the things she is able and can do for herself- I know all of these so how and why am I taking the bait fallen into this trap? She has been discharged from the hospital an hour ago and I have no motivation to go pick her up. I'm sorry I am so horrible. I don't like me either.