2020 has been the worst year of my life. Towards the end of Feb my father, who is 79 years old had a stroke. My step mom has been sick for a long time with symptoms of Parkinsons. Now I’ve been with them forever and I graduated college in 2018, and have been struggling to find a good job ever since. I’ve been working dead end jobs and have barely been able to handle bills on top of trying to save. My parents, mainly my father, never wanted me to worry about anything so regardless of my attempts to help out, I’ve been left in the dark about certain things such as medical history, important documents needed for emergencies, there was absolutely no plan in motion to prepare me for what happened to our family. Overnight I went from trying to better myself to doing that ON TOP of now trying to run a household by myself. My dad has recovered almost fully which is a miracle, God is so amazing. However there are still problems that remain. My step mom’s family helps out a great deal while I’m at work, but there has been tension with their decision making and the well-being of me and my father. Trying to find him adequate care while I’m away has been my main issue. Now he’s pretty much independent but has some memory/cognitive issues. My biggest fear is me not being there one day and something tragic happens. If I wasn’t home that night in February, idk what could’ve happened. Now I’m forever traumatized by the thought of going out of town or leaving their side. I’ve tried everything, we cant afford out of pocket care, so I applied for medicaid for him, but the enrollment period was over. And like I said we don't have much family who would care to help, so everything has fallen on me and quite frankly my depression has gotten worse and worse. I’m at a dead end and don't know what to do, on top of my step mom’s family who are probably in the process of doing something that could potentially put me and my father in an even worse situation. Idk how much longer I can keep this up and with no way to get away to escape just to breathe for a little while, I honestly have no desire to even face the next day. I’ve tried every outside source I can think of and I’m still so lost. I need help!